Cancelling (lyrics)

Many times you’ve lied.
You’ve made people cry.
You don’t sacrifice.
You know that they died…

Because of you
I will start cancelling you.
Because of you
Don’t you see? Leave this society!

You feel so fabulous.
You want us to love you.
So that we’ll blindly follow.
Heroes only bring terror.

Because of you
I will start cancelling you.
Because of you
Don’t you see? Leave this society!

I’ve seen who you are.
I’ve seen how scared you are.
You are only big when you’ve got people who love you.

I will start cancelling you.
I will start cancelling you.

Written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in January 1994. I was 15 years old at that time. English was still a new language.
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The Devil in Dreams

A story I would like to share.
I’ve met the devil in dreams since my childhood.

I was 17 years old when I got this dream in
January 1996. An otherworldly man was
flying in the sky, while he carried me.
I was sitting on his lap during our flight.
It seemed like he was seated on an invisible
flying chair, while he was flying from the
cold snow mountains all the way to the hot
desert where the ABN AMRO Bank was
located in a completely unknown land
surrounded by huge mountains. There was
a big ufo station located right next to the
bank. The station was on the left side of the
main entrance of the ABN AMRO Bank.
That’s how I learned that this otherworldly
man might be the chief of all air and space
traffic. I remember that the flying machines
had various shapes and one flying machine
looked square like a cube and it was made
of transparent materials, so I could see the
pilot inside the machine. The otherworldly
man and I landed right in front of the main
entrance of the bank. I jumped off his lap.
He smiled at me and was so handsome.
Then we entered the ABN AMRO Bank.
So we walked inside and then another
handsome man (an employee) sitting
behind the reception desk welcomed us.
I stood right in front of the reception desk
and the otherworldly man stood right next
to me. I had to deliver a small piece of paper
with my name written on it. I guess that
piece of paper was a symbol of my contract.
I put the piece of paper in a basket standing
on top of the desk. In the basket there were
hundreds of pieces of paper. Each piece of
paper revealed the name of another person.
I guess I was just another number at this
bank. Then we left the building again and
that’s all I remember. I guess I woke up
after this.

Was this just a dream? I don’t think so.
After receiving this dream in 1996 I kept
wondering for many years who this
flying handsome charming man was. In the
dream I knew exactly who he was, but as
soon as I woke up I forgot. So that’s why
I kept wondering about his identity. Is this
man a good spirit or a bad spirit? Is he an
angel or a devil? Maybe both? In my heart
I knew who that flying man was, but I was
still in denial. I was a very lonely gay
teenager, so of course I got a crush on him
and I started romanticizing him in my mind.
It took me a long time to be honest with
myself and confess his true evil identity.
Obviously, the truth is that a demon
disguised as a handsome man tried to
tempt me in dreams and manipulate me
into signing some kind of contract.
When I was 17 years old, I did not know that
the devil would try to trick me in this way.
I guess I was stupid. But how do I get out of
this evil contract? I was not fully conscious
when this contract was made, so I guess that
means this contract is not valid. In my heart
this contract has never existed. Nobody
owns me. My soul belongs to me.

In the video you can read some other dreams I’ve had about the devil.
Get informed and take care of your soul!

Ryan

LET’S GIVE ALL WE HAVE (song performance)

I wrote this song in August 1994 when I was 15 years old.
The performance in the video was filmed on 9 April 2018 (39 years old now! OMG! Time goes too fast!).
I guess I felt the need to revisit my teen years and remember the dreams I had back then.
Some dreams, some wishes, some feelings are timeless, no matter how old we become.
By the way, I’m not an experienced xylophone player, so I keep the composition simple. I’m not that talented.
Audio quality is not great either, but this recording is all I have right now.

Love,

Ryan

Stop Discrimination against Gay People in the Bible!!! (video)

The biblical god is a typical alpha male bully. Especially effeminates deal with a lot of discrimination. We have to let go of this evil god. All effeminate boys deserve respect, love and some fun. Treat another person the way you would like to be treated yourself. If you’re not able to love an effeminate man, then you don’t deserve to be loved either.

Written and created by Ryan Maurice Roemer.

Let’s give all we have (lyrics)

I’m tired of sharing fun with myself.
It’s never been my wish, like today.
I’ve always been happy, as you see.
It could have been better together.

And I know that’s the way you think too.
Together we’ll take it much further.

Let’s give all we have.
What’s inside of you?
Whatever it is,
I’m gonna treat you right.

Tell me why you need me as a friend.
Know the reason yourself why it’s me.
‘Cause whatever we have, has value.
Don’t break down the road in front of us.

And I know that’s the way you think too.
Together we’ll take it much further.

Let’s give all we have.
What’s inside of you?
Whatever it is,
I’m gonna treat you right.

But life is not a fairy tale.
Try to survive my bad moods.
Don’t run away too.

And I know that’s the way you think too.
Together we’ll take it much further.

Let’s give all we have.
What’s inside of you?
Whatever it is,
I’m gonna treat you right.

Let’s give all we have.
What’s inside of you?
Whatever it is,
I’m gonna treat you right.

Let’s give all we have!
Tell me!
What’s inside of you?
Tell me!
Aha
What’s inside of you?

Lyrics written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in August 1994 when I was 15 years old.

Stop Discrimination against Gay People in the Bible!!! (video)

The biblical god is a typical alpha male bully. Especially effeminates deal with a lot of discrimination. We have to let go of this evil god. All effeminate boys deserve respect, love and some fun. Treat another person the way you would like to be treated yourself. If you’re not able to love an effeminate man, then you don’t deserve to be loved either.

Written and created by Ryan Maurice Roemer.