Is an extraterrestrial creature ruling the world?

In this blog post I share some dreams I’ve had about extraterrestrial beings, including one in which a Christ-like figure appeared. I also discuss a recurring nightmare: I was harassed by a ghost for years while sleeping in my bed. Although this abuse only happened in my dreams, it felt very real. This started back in the year 2000 when I was 21 years old. I suspect this evil spirit is actually an alien. I hesitated for a long time to tell this story because I don’t like it and it’s very personal to me, but I stil want to share it with you because I think it’s good to talk about supernatural experiences and maybe someone else has experienced the same kind of bullying. By the way, I had already published my story about this nasty ghost/alien back in 2019, but my English writing style was rather poor and I had left out a lot of details, so that’s why I would like to write it again in this new post. English is not my native language, but I will try to explain my story in the best way possible. I’m of Surinamese descent, but born and raised in the Netherlands, so Dutch is my first language. Since this post is about aliens and supernatural phenomena, I will also talk about a UFO that I saw on 22 July 2019. So this was not a dream. I will be talking about much more than just my dreams, as I will also delve into global politics, my travels to Egypt and racism/fascism within Christian communities.


1. MY DREAM FROM 2017: A FRIENDLY MATCH THAT GOT OUT OF HAND

On 28 September 2017, between approximately 8:00 and 10:00 AM, I had a big dream. So this dream starts with a bright sunny day at school. A big event is taking place at a large school, a kind of world school. By the way, this school does not exist in reality. I only saw it in my dream. All the students, including myself (probably a younger version of myself), are standing along the large schoolyard. So we are the audience looking at two large teams, or armies, that are lined up in the schoolyard, and are about to fight each other, but the battle looks very theatrical because it’s supposed to be a friendly match. The players are like actors dressed as armored soldiers and carry large toy guns in their hands with which they shoot at each other. The toy guns are huge, feature all sorts of funny designs, and are also very colorful. They are artistic creations to behold, which is ironic because weapons are not amusing or artistic at all. I don’t even like weapons, so I dont know why I got a dream about firearms. Anyway, the soldiers from both teams are shooting at each other, but their guns only release water, paint, or something else because it’s not real. It’s only a friendly match, right? But then after a while, the tone becomes increasingly serious, vicious, and hostile. Until one soldier from one of the teams turns out to be a real madman because he has a real gun. He wears a heavily armored white suit, making him look a bit like an astronaut. In his hands he carries a large rifle. At first glance, it looks like a toy gun made of Lego, but it turns out to be a real gun. It’s not a normal rifle with bullets. It’s a gas rifle! The madman points his rifle at the sky and fires balls of gas into the air. The gas spreads rapidly through the air and the clouds, which creates a life-threatening situation for all the inhabitants of our city. The air is already very hot because it has been very warm and sunny for days, so there is a high probability that a massive fire will break out in the sky. According to the logic of the dream, the combination of heat and gas in the air is fatal, which will cause a heavenly fire. This inferno will eventually descend from the sky onto the cities and villages, and then it will become very difficult to escape. So, immediately after that madman shot gas balls into the air, everyone in the crowd panics, including me. I run away from the schoolyard, looking for cover. As I run, I see the sky already starting to turn misty and yellow, which looks very threatening.

I run through a few streets and go to a building with an underground cellar. This building has a very narrow entrance on the outside, but I just fit between the two walls. Luckily, I’m slim enough. So I can go inside to take shelter in the underground cellar. There are already a few other students in that cellar. But then this underground cellar suddenly turns out to be a vehicle. It’s like magic! So the cellar has become a vehicle with wheels and starts driving through the city. At first, the vehicle is completely open because there are no walls or doors. As we drive through the city, we see a black woman walking by. She is about 60 years old, has a stout figure and kinky black hair. The students and I say to each other in English: ‘She is one of our best teachers!’ So we bring the machine to a halt and ask her to get into the vehicle, to which she agrees. She enters the vehicle from the front. Then, from the back of the vehicle, an older Asian student appears. Perhaps she is of Chinese descent, also around 60, slim figure, with straight black hair that falls just above her shoulders. She comes and sits at a table next to me. I’m sitting at the very back of the vehicle. Each student sits on a chair behind a table in the vehicle. Once everyone is on board, the vehicle closes. All of a sudden, out of nowhere, some walls appear around the vehicle, so now the vehicle looks like a large caravan or school bus. Then another teacher appears at the front of our little classroom. She seems middle-aged and has light brown skin and wavy dark hair. She stands by the blackboard on which she has made a large drawing with chalk. But I don’t remember what kind of drawing it was. In the meantime, the Asian woman sitting next to me tells me that there is an alien being who holds all the power on Earth. She forms a circle with her fingers to indicate that the alien lives in a round object. The woman explains that he holds immense power here on Earth, but that he resides in a place (in an object far above Earth) where humans cannot see him. Because of this, people on Earth don’t know that this alien is all-powerful. The other students and I tell her that we already knew this.

Sitting at my school desk, I realize that at such dramatic moments (natural disasters and wars), you really ought to be with your family. So I call my mother to tell her what’s happened: a deranged soldier with a rifle has fired gas balls into the sky, causing a huge fire in the sky that will eventually descend on the cities. I tell my mother to take shelter in a basement because that’s the only place where people will be safe. Then I hang up the phone and start crying, worried about my family. My tears stream down my cheeks onto the tabletop of my school desk. The wise Asian woman sitting next to me puts her arm around me to comfort me. That’s the end of the dream. Then I wake up.

So I had this dream 9 years ago. Looking back at this dream makes me think that this madman from my dream must have been a symbol for the crazy war-hungry world leaders we see today. In 2014 I had published a video on Youtube about the Nuclear Security Summit in The Hague and I used this opportunity to call for nuclear disarmamant. In this video I also talked about Benjamin Netanyahu, Prime Minister of Israel, and said that he came across as a very warlike political leader during his speech at the 68th session of the United Nations General Assembly in September 2013, while the then President of Iran, Hassan Rouhani, gave a much more positive and peaceful statement. Back then, Netanyahu was already lying about the presence of nuclear weapons in Iran in order to incite the US to go to war against Iran. Now 13 years later this topic of weapons of mass destruction is back in the news. This time Netanyahu has succeeded in dragging the United States into a war with Iran. On April 7th, Donald Trump, President of the US, threatened to wipe the entire civilization of Iran from the face of the Earth, which means he considered using a nuclear bomb. So it’s quite clear that the US and Israel are currently the two biggest rogue states in the world. Moreover, last January Trump invaded Venezuela and kidnapped President Maduro, and also threatened to secede Greenland from the Kingdom of Denmark, which could endanger the existence of NATO. In the meantime, Israel continues to terrorize countries in the Middle East, such as Palestine and Lebanon, because the Israeli war cabinet’s goal is to create a Greater Israel. There is no real ceasefire in Gaza. Besides, the United Arab Emirates, a puppet controlled by Israel and the US, is backing the Rapid Support Forces (RSF) to destabilize Sudan. In exchange for gold and other natural resources, the UAE supplies weapons to the RSF, a militia that has attacked the indigenuous population of Sudan for more than three years now. So Zionist political leaders from the US and Israel, who are actually white supremacists, want World War 3 to break out and would like it to become a nuclear war because they want to exterminate the Untermenschen (non-whites). Obviously Trump is not the ‘Peace President’. He definitely does not deserve the Nobel Peace Prize. All these men (Trump, JD Vance, Isaac Herzog & Netanyahu) are real psychopaths and should be arrested and taken to the International Criminal Court in The Hague. I don’t care that the US and Israel don’t recognize the ICC, just arrest all these idiots! They are playing with fire. All life on our planet is in danger now.

Another important figure in my dream is the older woman who told me about an alien that has control over our entire planet. Although I did not see this alien in my dream, I know she meant that it is not a loving being. This creature is not God. I think it’s a demon, probably the devil himself. This explains why there is so much suffering in our world today because it’s controlled by Satan/Lucifer. That’s why we see so many wars and genocides. So yeah, I think it’s possible that Satan is actually a super intelligent extraterrestrial being that captured planet Earth thousands of years ago. This means that the devil is playing God on our planet, he is therefore not the true God. Humans are not permitted to see the original God. Did the devil create an illusion for all of us? And who created the devil? And why was he created? Did God do this? Why would a loving god create an evil creature? Is Satan a real threat to God or is he merely a silly, naughty rebel? I suspect Satan is the one who revealed the secret technology for making nuclear bombs to human scientists. So what is Satan’s endgame? Does he really hate humanity that much and want to destroy all life on Earth? Or is his sole purpose to be worshipped as a god by billions of people? If Satan hates humanity, then giving people the technology for weapons of mass destruction was a clever move. After all, many people are foolish, impulsive, and self-destructive enough to use these weapons one day. Satan must know there is a big chance that people will use these bombs to destroy themselves and the entire planet. But if Satan’s only goal is to be worshipped as a god, which means his purpose is not to destroy the whole human race, then why does he feel the need to be worshipped? Well, I guess, because he must be jealous and wants to compete with God. I think the major difference is that Satan cannot create universes, planets and stars. Only God can do that. I would like to clarify that I don’t view God as a man or a woman because I don’t believe that humans were created in the image of God. Even though a divine spark resides in every little child, I believe God is fundamentally different from human beings. God is an unfathomable phenomenon that far transcends our understanding. I believe God is the spirit that created our universe. Well, I hope so….. For if this world was created not by God but by Satan, that would mean we are in big trouble. Then there would never be peace on Earth. But it would certainly explain why there is so much suffering and hatred. Today we live in a world, a society that is anti-human, anti-animal, anti-nature and anti-life. People can’t even afford to buy a house! That’s why mental diseases, such as depression, are increasing in our society. There is simply not enough love in this world. Humanity is being bullied in so many different ways. Many people lost connection to their authentic soul and to God, and eventually turned into sheep or non-player characters in the devil’s matrix. The more advanced our technology becomes, the further we drift from nature and God. Why are humans such easy targets for demonic entities? Is it possible that humans were genetically manipulated by extraterrestrial beings who posed as gods or angels? Is that what the religions and mythologies of ancient Egypt, Mesopotamia (Sumer), Greece and India are really about? If genetic modification actually took place, that would explain why humans differ so significantly from all other animals on Earth, and also why humans are often mean-spirited and not able to live in harmony with nature. The evolution from ape-man to Homo sapiens proceeded far too quickly. There must have been an external intervention.


2. MY DREAM FROM 1999: GOING INTO SPACE AND MEETING A CHRIST-LIKE FIGURE THERE

On 6 December 1999 really early in the morning I was sleeping in my bed when I got an amazing out-of-body experience. Suddenly I felt my spirit leave my body. An invisible angelic being had come to me and taken me on its lap, lifting me higher and higher into the sky until I had reached outer space. Then we began to travel through the cosmos, while the angel carried me. In only a few seconds we travelled enormous distances. The most amazing experience! I was flying faster than the speed of light. I flew through multiple huge cosmic tunnels beaming with colorful lights, passing millions of stars. Eventually, I arrived in a place where a giant image of a Christ-like figure became visible in the cosmos. This image was as large as a castle and also somewhat transparent, so that I could still see a few stars shining through him, which made it look majestic and enchanting. by the way, only his head and shoulders were visible. It seemed as if the giant image of Issa aka Yeshua (the Christ) was projected on a large cosmic screen. Actually, he looked rather similar to the Christ that I saw in my dream from early 1985, when I was 6 years old. This Christ looked like a Palestinian/Arab type of man with shoulder-length black hair. In my 1985 dream he was bare chested, but in this 1999 dream he wore a beautiful colorful cloak around his shoulders. His hair also appeared dark brown rather than black. It probably looked slightly lighter due to the starlight falling on it. Although he had kind eyes, he still looked sad when he started to speak with a gentle and clear voice. Strangely, he spoke English to me in this new dream. Though he spoke calmly, his message was urgent. He said: ‘Help me, please, help me! Help me! Help me! Please, help me! This is my last chance!’

The large image of Christ disappeared and then my flight continued through the cosmos until I arrived at a very large spacecraft. The main gate of the spaceship opened for me. Then a man in a white or grey spacesuit with a big helmet welcomed me on board. First he removed a spider from the door opening, because he knew that I suffer from arachnophobia. So I entered the big spacecraft and then he walked with me down a long wide corridor, passing several rooms on both sides of the corridor. Inside these rooms I saw doctors or surgeons helping their patients. So I guess, there was a hospital in this spaceship. At the end of the corridor I arrived at the administrative department. Here I sat down on a chair behind my desk to get to work, but I can’t quite remember what kind of work I was doing. Then my spirit returned to my body, so I woke up in my cozy bed in my little room, at my parental home on Zeewindelaan in The Hague. That was the end of my dream and out-of-body experience. What a ride!

For years I wondered why Christ spoke to me in English in that dream rather than in my own native language, Dutch. I assume that Christ is multilingual, as I consider him highly intelligent, so he must be capable of speaking at least a little Dutch, or even speaking it fluently, if he has to. But he did not do that and that’s why I used to think he was not the true Christ. I thought a demon or Satan was posing as Christ to deceive me. I even wondered if this dream had been created by some kind of mind-control technology. Maybe some dreams are created by AI technology? Perhaps Artificial Intelligence already existed in the 1990s, but was kept secret? Although I still have some questions, I have somewhat changed my mind over the past few years because now I do believe there is a chance that the Christ-like figure that appeared to me was the true Christ. I think I also understand why he chose to speak English and not Dutch or Aramaic. First of all, he’d better not speak Aramaic to me because I won’t be able to understand it. Probably he chose to speak English to me, because at that time, when I was 21, I wrote many songs in English. So English was a lot on my mind back then and I guess that Christ must have been aware of my hobby. By the way, I still like to write songs in English. Another possible reason, on this blog I share all my dreams in English, so that more people can read them, including people living in other countries. Whether you like it or not, English has become a popular language in many countries. Perhaps Christ already knew in 1999 that one day, many years later, I would tell stories in English on a blog. Moreover, English has always been an important language in the Netherlands because our country is right next to the United Kingdom. Most Dutch people can speak a little English. I started learning a bit of English in primary school, when I was 10, but later in high school, when I was 12 and older, English became even more important. I had several hours of English lessons every week. Nevertheless, I believe it’s important for smaller non-English-speaking countries to protect their own languages. We don’t all have to speak the same language. It’s nice to be able to speak two or more languages, it’s very practical when you’re travelling, but don’t give up your native language. So that’s why I also write songs and stories in my native language, Dutch.


3. A RECURRING DREAM IN 2000-2014: BULLIED BY A GHOST WHILE SLEEPING

Quite soon after this 1999 dream an invisible person began visiting me in dreams while I lay sleeping in bed. It all started in early 2000. Often, a spirit would lie beneath my body in the bed. Of course I thought it was strange, but I let the spirit come close to me because I was curious about the supernatural. At first, he was gentle and peaceful, so I thought he was the same angelic being that had lifted me higher in my dream from December 1999. But there was one difference: he had never lifted me higher, up to the cosmos. He never took me to that divine place in space. After about a year, this spirit became more malevolent and started tormenting me. So it turned out to be a nasty ghost! That’s when I realized that he was probably not the angelic being from my dream in December 1999. So after this dream my life changed because a ghost kept harrassing me while I was sleeping in my bed. Another possibility: maybe the angel from my 1999 dream was actually demonic. So at first he acted nicely, but later he began to show his true malicious nature. So I honestly don’t know whether the large Christ-like figure that I had seen in my 1999 dream was the true Christ or a false image of Christ projected into the cosmos by Satan, with the intention of manipulating me and winning my trust. I hope he was the true Christ, but I know there is a good chance he was actually the devil. I already told you that in my 2017 dream there was an older woman who told me that an alien ruled the world and that this being lived in space. Well, in my 1999 dream I was taken to the cosmos and boarded a large spaceship, so maybe that celestial being from my dream back then is actually the devil, masquerading as Christ and ruling the world. Just for your information, in dreams the devil could take any shape, any gender, any color he wants. He will show an image of what he thinks you would like to see. So be aware!

Since the year 2000 I have received many dreams about a demon appearing as an invisible man. I say ‘man’ because this devil is a male entity, not a female entity. As the ghost lay beneath my body in my bed, it sometimes felt as if he were lifting me up a little, into the air. At first, his touch was sweet and soft as an angel’s, but after a year, he became more aggressive and began to desecrate my body, because it felt like I was being touched by an evil predator with razor-sharp claws. He touched my body in an inappropriate and aggressive way, while I was asleep, although I still knew what was happening. I remember his hands feeling like claws because his fingers or nails felt very sharp, like needles or surgical blades. So that was a very painful experience and made me very angry, so I started to resist when he came back in dreams. I wanted him to leave me alone. Strangely enough, I was never afraid and always felt safe in my room, because I knew I was dreaming and simply lying in bed. I often tried to wake up, but it was really difficult to do that, because the demon tried to keep me asleep. It felt as if my body was paralyzed because I could not speak or move my body in bed, but I was always thinking: ‘Don’t touch me! Get out!’ I started swearing at him a lot because I had become aggressive towards him and wanted to fight back, but it was very difficult to move the lips of my mouth while I was sleeping and dreaming. Maybe two or three times I could really see him and noticed that he looked like a mummy, which made me realize that I was fighting a very old demon. Usually this evil spirit visited me early in the morning, just a few minutes before sunrise. I had to find a way to set myself free, so I learned to use the power of my mind to chase him away from me and I also learned to retaliate, meaning that I wanted to hurt him back. So it became a telepathic and spiritual battle over who had the strongest mind. But every time he came back to my bed to try again. So sometimes he would leave, but then after a few minutes he would come back and try again to torment me, just like an annoying mosquito. That’s the best way to describe this demon. On some mornings he would try to come back as many as four or five times, hoping I would fall asleep and give in to him, but I refused. There were times when he stayed away from me for a few weeks, but eventually, he would come back. The spiritual harassment continued for many years. The only way to make the nightmare stop was waking up. Then everything was normal again. Staying awake thus became the best weapon to stop this madness.

Although I was on my guard, I often did not immediately realize that a ghost had sneaked into my bed and that I was being harassed, because after a few hours I was too tired and sleepy to notice, so it all happened in a very subtle and quiet way. Of course ghosts don’t make any noise and move very smoothly, just like a thief. But as soon as I realized that this demonic entity was in my bed again (in my dream), I started yelling at him. This was a really nasty spiritual battle that I had to go through for years when I was in my twenties and even in my thirties. The reason this demon kept coming back to me was that he wanted to carry me off to a secret world. In many dreams I could feel how this evil spirit dragged me to the greatest depths of the Earth. It felt as if we were descending hundreds of kilometers into the Earth. While carrying me on his lap, he descended deeper and deeper into the Earth until we arrived in an underground world, a cave complex or labyrinth. Then he started to fly, still carrying me on his lap, through the cave chambers where I could see ancient paintings on the walls. I think those paintings were Egyptian, but I could be mistaken. The devil never said anything except once. Back in the early 2000s he said: ‘Down here I know the road much better than you do.’ He said this to me in my native language, Dutch: ‘Hier beneden ken ik de weg beter dan jij.’ But as soon as I woke up in my bed everything was gone and back to normal. Very often I really had to fight to wake up because this evil spirit always tried to prevent me from waking up. Over time I noticed that my speech had slowed down and I started developing a slight stutter when I was in my twenties, especially when I was nervous or tired, so I wonder if I had one or more TIAs during these nightmares. I could feel that something was happening to my brain. I also got ptosis in one eye. It was a very stressful situation for me for many years.

I guess, some people reading this story will think that I wanted this abuse to happen subconsciously. They might think: ‘Oh he is gay, so this must have been his erotic fantasy.’ Well, NO! It was never my fantasy and I never enjoyed it nor did I ever feel excited. Yes, I’m homosexual, but I never liked what was done to me. I always wanted the ghost to stop touching me. Of course I have never had any physical injuries, because the demon was not really there in my bed. It all happened in my dreams, but what I experienced in these lucid dreams felt like real assault. The goal was to inflict pain. There was no tenderness. So what happened to me was spiritual harassment and it happened hundreds of times over the years. I get the feeling that the devil is jealous of me and wants to take something from me that he doesn’t have himself. But you cannot take away from me what God gave me. So he will be punished for what he has done to me and it will happen without mercy. Karma!


4. MY DREAM FROM NOVEMBER 2014: THE RITUAL AT THE ALTAR

In November 2014 I got this recurring dream again, but it was a little different this time. The demon carried me on his lap once more, flying like a ghost straight through the massive walls of an underground labyrinth, but this time, for the first time, we arrived in the main cave chamber, the center of the entire complex, where I could see a few humans, probably worshippers, that had gathered for the main ritual. At that moment it became very clear to me that some men regard this evil spirit as a ‘god’. About 15 men wore long dark hooded cloaks that covered their bodies and heads, preventing me from seeing their faces. They stood in a circle around the large altar. The evil demon hovered right above this altar, still carrying me on his lap, while the human servants chanted words in an unknown language. Or maybe those servants were not human at all? After all, I could not see their faces, but I did see some ancient Egyptian paintings on walls behind them. While the servants continued to sing in a very low tone, the devil began to fly towards a black hole in the wall right in front of us, because he wanted to enter this dark hole together with me. So I saw this hole coming closer and closer. Only one second before entering I decided to wake up, because my soul refused to enter the hole, and when I woke up I was still in my bed in my little studio in Brussels, Belgium. Everything was back to normal. I did not enter because it was never my intention to become one with this demon. I always knew that I was the one who was in control. I’m still the boss! Although I resented him, I allowed him to carry me to this demonic underground world for a few years, because a part of me was curious. I wanted to know where he was going to, because I wanted to know his secret, but I will never enter the black hole. So for me this means the end of our spiritual contact, but sometimes he still tries to come to me in dreams, just like a mosquito. It’s so annoying!

As there was a satanic ritual at an altar in this dream, I would like to point out that I’ve never been part of any organized cults and I have never taken part in any voodoo rituals in real life. So this satanic ritual only happened in my dream. My mother and grandmother taught me to be a Catholic Christian when I was a child. I’ve never used drugs, I’ve never been high and I’ve never smoked in my whole life. Luckily, I don’t have any addictions. I also don’t watch horror and action movies because I don’t like violence. So cults, religion, drugs and movies are not the reasons for getting these bizarre recurring nightmares. I also refuse to believe that all nightmares have been made up by my own little brain. I know that my brain doesn’t like violence because I’m simply not a violent spirit. My fantasies are very different from the dreams that I get because I prefer thinking about flowers, trees, beautiful lakes, love, tenderness, harmony, music and art. Very different! So I’m convinced that an evil force gave those nightmares to me. Either he is a really nasty ghost or he is a really nasty alien contacting me in dreams. Honestly, I think it was Satan himself. The most important question is why the devil did this to me. Why did he choose me? I guess, because Christ had appeared in my dream in 1985, when I was 6, and showed the stigmata in his hands to me. So perhaps this encounter between me and Christ (if he was the true Christ) triggered the devil. So then later in life, when I was an adult, Satan decided to challenge and test my spirit in dreams for many years. It also explains why I’ve had such a hard life, in so many different ways. Yet, despite the difficulties, there were still moments of joy in my life. For example, singing, making music and taking long walks in the dunes and on the beach made me feel good. Remarkably, there was a blackbird that sang on my bedroom balcony (at my home in The Hague) every morning and afternoon for years. This began around 2000 and continued until about 2008. I often felt this blackbird was a guardian angel sent by God. I loved listening to his melodious songs.

When I was a child and later a teenager, I loved reading books about ancient Egypt. And when I became an Art History student at Leiden University, I decided to take a few courses on the history, culture and art of ancient Egypt. But those nightmares, in which ancient Egyptian paintings appeared on the walls of an underground labyrinth, made me dislike Egypt. I think that was one of the goals of the devil. For some reason he wanted me to associate ancient Egypt with satanic rituals. For a time I believed that, but later I discovered that it was all an illusion. I guess he hoped that, because of this negative experience, I would never travel to modern Egypt. He wanted to destroy my curiosity and enthousiasm for ancient cultures, such as Egypt. But then on 29 October 2016 I got a more positive dream about Egypt for the first time. In this dream I was on a tour bus with a group of tourists, driving along the Nile river and it felt so good. This dream inspired me to go on vacation to Egypt in March 2019. So there I was, riding a tour bus from Hurghada Airport to Luxor, and this time it was actually happening! It was not a dream. In Luxor I boarded a cruise ship on the Nile. Sailing from Luxor to Aswan was such a beautiful trip, which made me fall in love with Egypt all over again. So since then I have changed my mind about Egypt. I even bought a holiday apartment in Hurghada in summer 2023. I have met many friendly Egyptians, but there are also many Egyptians who were not nice to me. First of all, I was pestered by dozens of scammers on the streets of Cairo. I can’t even trust taxi drivers in this city! All those scammers are very annoying and sometimes even aggressive. In addition, I also encountered racism at Hurghada Airport. The security staff there are the most racist I have ever seen at an airport. I have been to Hurghada five times now, and every time I travel there from Amsterdam Schiphol Airport, the Egyptian security personnel feel it necessary to single me out from a large group of tourists from the Netherlands. Everyone else is white, so I’m the only black person, and for some reason they always pick me for an extra baggage check, simply because I’m black. Last March 2026, an Egyptian security guard, a man with an Arab appearance and brown skin, or maybe he was Nubian because his skin was slightly darker, wanted to check my luggage in a security baggage scanner. Then later one of the other guards opened my large suitcase and asked why there was a pack of dust cloths inside. He actually had no idea what it was. So, with a serious look on his face, he first asked me what it was. I was thinking: ‘Can’t you see what it is??? OMG, it’s so obvious! People use this to clean their homes.’ He also asked me why I had a small trash can in my suitcase. So I told him that I had bought some stuff for my apartment in Hurghada, but he did not understand. In the end, the guard let me pass. I’m not angry about his ignorance. I’m just angry that, out of a large group of tourists from the Netherlands, they always single out that one black person (me) for an extra baggage check, even though they know my luggage had already been checked at the airport in Amsterdam. So yes, there is racism at Hurghada Airport and it comes from brown people (security) who bully other brown people (tourists). I assume I’m not the only black person with this bad experience and I even considered filing an official complaint at the airport. Security personnel associates black and brown people with criminals, so that is very hurtful to us. It’s so strange that racism exists in modern Egypt because ancient Egypt, originally called ‘Kemet’, was founded by black people. Yes, before Kemet was conquered by Assyrians, Macedonians, Romans and Arab Muslims, its original inhabitants were black Africans who maintained close ties with Nubia (= present-day Sudan), where many pyramids are also located.

Me at the Great Pyramid of Giza, near Cairo, on 21 March 2026.



5. MY THOUGHTS ON WHITE SUPREMACISM, CHRISTIANITY AND ITS RELATIONSHIP TO SATANISM

White supremacism is gaining popularity in Europe due to xenophobia, specifically hatred directed at migrants and refugees from Africa and West Asia. Far-right fundamentalists pretend that a genocide against white people is taking place in Europe and use this lie as a pretext to discuss the foundations of a remigration law; this entails that people of color who were, for instance, born and raised in the Netherlands or Belgium should be sent back to Africa or West Asia if they commit a crime, even though they have never lived there. So in this way black and brown people will become second- or third-class citizens in European countries, because they lose all their rights if they make a single mistake. In other words, white people can always continue living in the Netherlands or Belgium, even after making terrible mistakes, because they are regarded as ‘real’ Europeans. Remigration will therefore lead to a double standard for the populations of European countries. It could mark the beginning of a policy of ethnic cleansing. I feel scared because white supremacists think and speak just like the Nazis did in Germany in the 1930s and 1940s. What they would actually like to do is imprison all people of color in concentration camps and murder them, but they can’t say this openly (yet).

There is no white genocide because the vast majority of the population in European countries is still white. Black and brown people constitute only a small minority in Europe, except in major cities like Amsterdam, Rotterdam, The Hague, Utrecht, Brussels, Antwerp, Ghent, Paris, Berlin, London, Milan and Rome, where you see thousands of migrants. People of color often choose to live in big(ger) cities for work. In villages you see mostly white people, and there are thousands of villages in Europe. Europe has a population of approximately 744 million people, and the vast majority (85% to 90%) are ethnically classified as white. So there are approximately 630 to 670 million white people in Europe. By the way, how can there be a white genocide when people of color constitute only a minority and often lack significant power? While it is true that there are many brown and black men involved in the criminal underworld, this is often because they are unable to find work. The fact that some white people have been robbed or killed by criminals of immigrant background does not necessarily imply that a white genocide is taking place. Strangely, white supremacists never ask why migrants and refugees from Africa and West-Asia come to Europe because they don’t want to hear the truth. The reason is that countries in Africa and West Asia are destabilized and terrorized by the US, Israel and the EU. How is it possible for these rogue states to invade and bomb non-Western countries and commit genocides there, with impunity? Who gave them the right and the technological power to do this for so many decades? Or even centuries, if we take into account the colonial era and the transatlantic slave trade? If Satan is truly the most powerful entity in this world, then he must have been the one who struck a deal with the political regimes of the US, Israel and several major European countries, such as the United Kingdom and Germany. I believe that white supremacists must worship Satan in exchange for power, immense wealth, ethnic/racial superiority and world domination. In my view, that’s the reason why people of color have suffered the most over the past decades and centuries. Simply because Satan is against us.

I have discovered that many Christian white people are, in fact, proponents of white supremacy. For example, Mormons, Evangelicals, Protestants and Catholics are often big racists. This explains why British colonists whitewashed Christ’s appearance and call him ‘Jesus’, which was not the original name of the historical prophet. Why did they change his name and ethnicity? What was their intention behind it? The blond white Jesus is actually the devil, if you ask me. By the way, the German Nazis believed that blond white peope were descended from blond white gods who lived on Atlantis, a lost civilization. This is what I learned during history lessons in high school. Nowadays, there are white supremacists who believe that the Nordics (= aliens who are tall, white, blond, smart and benevolent) were the gods of Atlantis. This demonstrates that white supremacists constantly feel the need to idealize and deify white people, equating them with super-intelligent aliens, angels or gods. Ultimately, it’s a form of hubris. Probably it’s all nonsense and mind-control. Don’t believe it, folks! Decolonize your minds! White supremacists give white people a bad name. Well, that is a great pity, because there are also many white men and women who have good intentions and wish to live together in peace with people of other ethnic backgrounds on this planet. By the way, I’m not saying it is impossible for aliens or angels to be white and blond, I just find it highly suspicious that benevolent beings are always depicted as having white or grey skin, but never brown or black skin, except when they are portrayed as malevolent, in that case they are actually depicted with darker skin. So what I’m essentially trying to say is that the way aliens and angels are depicted seems to reflect racist ideas within our society. The true Christ is not a white supremacist, for he would never discriminate against or humiliate people who look different. By the way, Issa aka Yeshua was most likely a brown or black man from Judaea because the vast majority of people in Judaea looked that way at the time. He was very social because he wanted to protect outcasts. So he cares about the black sheep, the scapegoat. I believe that if he were present in the world today, he would have welcomed migrants and refugees. We must remember that Yeshua and his parents were refugees in Egypt, according to Matthew 2:13-15. Personally, I don’t think the intention is for you to let strangers into your country endlessly, for instance, if your country is too small, but you can at least show empathy towards them. However, in the Americas all white people are migrants from Europe. White people from Europe should never forget that! There are hundreds of millions of white people in the Americas. The indigenous population lost a great deal of land to colonists and settlers from Europe. In addition, millions of indigenous people were killed. As a matter of fact, that was a genocide. What Europeans did to them was not very Christian. By the way, Christ is also known for saying that you should treat another person the way you would like to be treated. Of course Satan’s attitude is the exact opposite: emotionally detached, homophobic, misogynistic, characterized by toxic masculinity, materialistic, capitalist/corporatist, elitist, xenophobic, racist, opposed to diversity and opposed to socialism. The devil’s ultimate goal is ‘divide and rule’. He doesn’t give a damn about the problems of minorities because he is incapable of compassion.


6. WISHING THAT AN ACADEMIC DISCIPLINE FOR DREAMS EXISTED

My encounters with Christ and Satan in dreams have convinced me there is more between heaven and earth. Spirits do exist. I also believe that aliens exist, although I can’t really prove this. It’s sad that most people dismiss the existence of the sixth sense. Probably they’ve never had a paranormal experience or perhaps they are afraid of spirits and aliens. I guess that if you simply reject or ignore their entire existence, you no longer need to be afraid of them either. But that is the easy route, and that’s simply not how I’m wired. I prefer to take the unknown and difficult paths, because I can learn so much more from them and get the chance to gain new experiences. That’s why I’m so interested in dreams, because their existence and where they all come from remains something of a mystery, and there has not been much research into them so far.

In the spring of 1990 I was 11 years old and began writing down many of the dreams I had had over the years. That’s why I can still remember so many dreams from my childhood and teenage years. For a long time I didn’t feel comfortable talking about the spiritual abuse in dreams, which started in the year 2000, because I felt embarrassed, but now that I’m older it’s a little easier to talk about those nightmares. I think some dreams are very interesting and that’s why I feel the need to share them with people. I’m the only person who could tell these dreams. If I had died and never told my story, then that would have been a loss for our collective spirit, the human spirit, because sharing dreams about Christ, the devil or aliens is important. I assume this is the way spirits communicate with human beings; it happens through dreams. That’s why all these dreams should be remembered and, if necessary, shared. I hope I’ve been able to inspire people to take their own dreams more seriously, because dreams are so undervalued in our current society. I also hope they will become aware that a great spiritual battle is taking place in this divided world, a battle between good and evil. I would feel disappointed if people dismissed my dreams as just crazy fantasies, but I realize that I can’t change people’s minds if they are no longer open to it. The ‘Demon of Commerce and Consumption’ has blocked people’s minds from being who they truly are, namely spiritual beings. That’s why they have become so obsessed with money and possessions. But our dreams are proof that we are, first and foremost, spiritual beings; spirits living on Earth in a mortal body, but only temporarily. We must not forget that our dreams are the gateways to other worlds. Given the relevance of dreams, I believe that Dream Interpretation should become an academic discipline. Nor should it be compared to Psychology, as dreamers do not necessarily have a mental health issue. When I was young, I considered studying Psychology, but ultimately I chose Art History. That’s why I hold a degree in Art History from Leiden University, but I see a parallel between an art historian and a dream interpreter. An art historian essentially interprets an artwork, such as a painting. A dream interpreter does the same, because a dream can resemble a painting filled with symbolism and historical references.

So spirits are able to appear in dreams. But what about humans? Are human beings also able to appear in your dreams? Telepathic contact between two people is possible, but how far can this really go? Sometimes I wonder whether people, perhaps with the help of aliens, have developed a special technology to infiltrate and influence our dreams, but that this has been kept secret. Can we still call these dreams ‘real dreams’? Or are they actually a form of mind control? I have discussed this topic before, but now I want to delve a little deeper into it. Are some dreams part of an MK Ultra mind-control experiment? Do these dreams contain some kind of implanted AI images? If this were truly possible, it would mean that dreams could be harnassed by the propaganda machines of political regimes to influence your state of mind and even your mental health, just as radio and television were created to influence your mind. This therefore raises some questions. Why do many people hear voices while awake? They are neither asleep nor dreaming, yet they hear voices. And why do many people suffer from schizophrenia? They perceive things that may not actually be there. And why do animals never have these kinds of psychological problems? When a cat or dog sees something that humans cannot perceive, we often call them highly sensitive animals, yet when a human sees or senses something supernatural, they are often labelled ‘delusional’ or ‘crazy’. And why do some people start sleepwalking while they are still asleep and dreaming? Where do all those voices and impulses really come from? And why do people rarely talk about dreams, even though sleeping and dreaming make up a large part of our lives? How do we know that our dreams are still real and pure? Can we trust what we see in dreams? Are our dreams still honest with us? And what influence do 4G and 5G Wi-Fi have on our minds, our ability to dream and also our ability to remember dreams? Is it still possible for us to have pure dreams, predictive dreams or lucid dreams, now that there is so much poison in the air? Well, I believe and hope it’s still possible, but I suspect it has become a lot harder for many dreamers. That’s what I heard people say on social media. Many people believe that their ability to remember dreams got worse after the introduction of 5G. Unfortunately, I have the same experience. I still dream, but I remember fewer dreams. I believe something changed in recent years. Did the false gods (aliens) decide that we are no longer allowed to remember (some of) our dreams? Do they possess a technology capable of erasing certain memories from our minds? There are many questions and there are no answers at this moment. I actually feel a bit uncomfortable asking these questions, because I know that many people will dismiss them as a conspiracy theory, but I believe that the devil’s matrix, in which we currently live, is a conspiracy against our spirits. So I guess that makes me a conspiracy theorist.


7. UFOS HIGH ABOVE THE ATLANTIC OCEAN

In July 2019 I went to Suriname to attend the funeral of my grandmother who had passed away at the age of 95. On 22 July 2019 my plane (KLM Royal Dutch Airlines) departed from Suriname bound for the Netherlands and after about an hour or two I noticed a UFO following our plane over the Atlantic Ocean. It followed our plane for more than two hours. It was already evening and starting to get dark when the plane departed from Johan Adolf Pengel International Airport, located near the town of Zanderij in Suriname. So most passengers closed their windows quite soon because they wanted to sleep, but I stayed awake because I wanted to look at the stars through my small window. My mother, who was sitting a few seats away, was also asleep. I remember seeing so many bright stars in the dark sky. I had never seen so many. It was like a painting. After a while I noticed another flying vehicle following us. It stayed close enough for me to see it, but it was too far away to make out clearly against the sky. At first, I thought it was just an airplane, but when the craft started making very strange movements that normal airplanes can’t make, I realized it was not an airplane. This object did not fly in a straight line like an airplane; instead, sometimes it would suddenly change direction, accelerate at breakneck speed and vanish for a few seconds. Then after a minute it reappeared, but in a different part of the sky. At times, it seemed as though this object was hovering motionless in the air, not moving at all, but at other moments it would suddenly start moving again, something ordinary aircraft cannot do. This spectacle lasted well over two hours, yet I think I was the only one who saw it, because when I looked around the plane, I saw that all the passengers were asleep. After some time I decided to relax a bit, as I could no longer see the UFO, but a few hours later, when the sky began to lighten again in the early morning, I spotted a UFO once more. I suspect it was the same object that I had seen earlier against the dark sky. This time the object was somewhat closer, allowing me to clearly make out its round shape. It emitted a bright light and hovered motionless among the clouds, high above the Atlantic Ocean. We still had not reached the European mainland. I quickly took a photo with my smartphone, but it was an old device, so the camera was not very good. So yes, I did manage to take a picture of the UFO, but the quality is not great. By the way, early in the morning some passengers turned on the lights above their seats after waking up, which made it harder for me to take a sharp photo because their lighting caused some reflection in my window. Anyway, after this amazing experience I wrote a song titled ‘Unidentified and flying’. I made a video for this song and included my photo of the UFO. However, many people have never seen that photo because the music video is not well known. That’s why I’m sharing the UFO photo again in this blog post. I don’t think it was a drone because the object is much larger than a drone. Moreover, the shape of drones is very different.

This is the original photo taken by me on 22 July 2019, from the window of KLM airplane. On the left side of the photo you see the jet engine under the wing of the airplane. In the bottom right of the photo, there is a spherical illuminated object. This is the UFO.


This is the same photo, but with extra lighting and brightness.



Remarkably enough, a few years earlier, though I no longer recall the exact year (perhaps around 2011-2013), my mother and stepfather, two aunts and some other family members also saw a UFO in Paramaribo, Suriname. My family was gathered at my uncle’s house in Paramaribo in the evening. They were sitting in the front yard when my mother’s older sister saw a large round object in the dark sky that was slowly drawing closer. She told my parents and other relatives about it, so that everyone looked up and could see the UFO. Unfortunately, I was not in Suriname at the time but in the Netherlands, so my mother and stepfather later told me over the phone that they had seen a UFO and that the object was round, metallic and very large, and came very close, as if it were observing them, before suddenly accelerating, speeding away in just a few seconds and vanishing into the sky, something an ordinary airplane could not do. My family decided not to report what they had seen to the Surinamese authorities, because they thought that people would not believe them. By the way, my dear Aunt Ingrid (an older sister of my mother), who passed away in December 2025, had told me that it was the second time she had seen a UFO. Many years ago, in the 1990s, she had seen the same kind of round object rise from the waters of the Suriname River, as she lived in a house right by that river. It’s the largest and most important river in Suriname, as many large ships sail on it.

So, do these UFOs come from other planets or are these highly advanced craft merely secret military experiments by powerful regimes in countries like the US, Russia and China? Maybe they possess technology that, for some reason, they prefer to keep secret. Another possibility: is the US using advanced craft to spy on Suriname and other countries in South America? Are Russia and China doing the same in other parts of the world? Are these powerful nations lying to us? Perhaps they are pretending these UFOs come from aliens from space, because they don’t want us to know they are spying on us? I don’t know why a powerful nation like the US or China would want to spy on Suriname, given that it is a country with a very small population of around 632,000 and is therefore not economically significant; however, it does possess abundant natural resources, such as oil, much like Guyana and French Guiana. So maybe there is more to this story. Well, the UFO sightings in and near Suriname remain a mystery. Hopefully, there will eventually be full disclosure.


8. INDEPENDENCE AND SOVEREIGNTY

For years I fought hard to break free from the evil extraterrestrial being, probably Satan, that appeared in my dreams, because I just want to live my own life, without the interference of a powerful creature trying to control my spirit, my dreams and my sleep. As I said before, my life energy is mine. My inner light belongs to me. I can let it shine upon the world if I choose, but no one can take it away from me. Not even Satan. No matter how powerful he is in this world, I’m still the boss of my life and my soul. So I will continue to live my life in the most authentic possible way. Nothing and no one is going to stop me. My dreams made me realize there are other entities out there, not only in nature but also in space, that we cannot perceive with our eyes. But the fact that we can’t see them does not mean they don’t exist. There is a powerful evil force that controls our world and wants us to live in a prison, because this entity is opposed to human freedom. When you take a close look at the world, you will see that many things were designed to enslave our minds. We live in an incredibly cruel world, in so many different ways. People are not only exposed to a great deal of aggression and violence on the streets and in the news, but it’s also difficult to find healthy food in supermarkets. There is simply too much artificially processed food that makes people ill. I hope that more people wake up from the illusion and the madness around us and that one day they will see how life was truly meant to be. How God intended life to be for all of us, regardless of skin color, hair texture or gender/sexuality. A truly loving God wants you to be free and loved.

Just as the devil bullied me in my dreams for years, I feel that the US and Israel bully smaller countries. The US and Israel are the same entity. Is Israel the 51st state of the US? Or is it the other way around? Does Israel have control over the US? Should we call it the United States of IsraHell? Well, it doesn’t really make a difference because it’s the same monster trying to impose its will on the rest of the world. And it always comes down to oil and gas. Chevron Corporation, a multinational energy corporation from the US, plays a crucial role in the oil and gas sector. We must all unite and rise up against this US-Israel abomination. Free Palestine, free Lebanon, free Syria, free Iran, free Venezuela and free Cuba from the terrorism of the United States Empire. Like many other empires of the past, such as the Roman Empire, the US Empire will one day fall. I hope that the citizens of the US will find the strength and courage to rise up against their criminal regime and bring about a radical change that benefits the future of all people. First of all, free the US Congress from Zionist senators who were paid by AIPAC. Designate AIPAC as a foreign agent, something the assassinated President John F. Kennedy tried to do in the early 1960s. Yes, he was allegedly killed for precisely that reason. When the US political system becomes healthy again, the world will hopefully heal as well. Smaller countries should never tolerate being dominated by the US. By the way, South America is not the backyard of the US, Donald Trump! There is a very large distance between the US and South America. Mexico might be called the backyard of the US, since it’s closer, but South America certainly is not. So screw the Monroe Doctrine and the so-called new Donroe Doctrine! Small countries in South America are sovereign and must decide for themselves whether they want to cooperate with other large countries, such as China. Mind your own business, United States! We all know why the US invaded Venezuela: because the country began developing ties with China that were too close. Get the hell out of Venezuela and leave Greenland alone! The indigenous Inuit should decide what happens to Greenland, and as far as I have heard, they would never want to be part of the US. So screw the Western Hemisphere, Trump! I hope that smaller countries will be able to break free from the domination and intimidation by the US regime and its dollar in the coming years.

It’s striking, time and again, to see how afraid most people are of being different from the group. People are just like cattle; they simply follow the herd and prefer to do what everyone else is doing, because the chances of social acceptance, and thus success, are far greater that way. No one wants to become a scapegoat, the loser of the village, so people are willing to tolerate abhorrent ways of life, such as slavery in past centuries, that can become normalized and legally sanctioned, simply because the majority of people allow it. Another example: When I was a child in the 1980s, I always found it strange that girls were allowed to have long hair, but boys were not. Who came up with this delusion? Who imposed this narrow-minded way of thinking on the masses? And why does everyone stick to this rule? As a matter of fact, hairstyles for men and women depend on the era and culture to which they belong. In a different era or culture, long hair for men might be perfectly normal. When I looked at paintings depicting Dutch men from the 17th century, I saw men with long hair. Why did their hairstyles change in later centuries? Why was long hair on men suddenly labeled as ‘too feminine’ or ‘gay’? Another example: Over the past 16 years I have noticed that more and more people prefer wearing sneakers in daily life. And today, in 2026, everyone wears them all the time! Adults, children, the elderly, men and women, black and white, straight and gay. Even prime ministers wear sneakers! They all have a fetish for sneakers now. And I’m so done with it! It’s a bit scary that everyone now prefers the same shoes. I’m sick and tired of seeing people walking around in sneakers everywhere, on every street, at every train station, and day in, day out. Sorry, but most sneakers don’t look very appealing and it’s getting worse every year. I remember the time when people in the Netherlands called this type of shoe ‘sports shoes’. But this term has disappeared and now everyone calls them ‘sneakers’. Back in the 1980s and 1990s most people wore different type of shoes to school, to work or when going out in the evening. Most people only wore sports shoes while exercising. Seeing this shift in fashion made me realize how quickly fashion trends can change, and also how easy it is to influence the way people think. If it’s so easy to influence people’s tastes, then it’s understandable why religion and political propaganda have such a great influence on people’s minds. Religion and mainstream news media can be weaponized to make people think alike and accept things that are wrong. Yeah, they would even accept genocide against an ethnic group. We have seen that time and again. The one who controls people’s minds holds the power. Satan knows that.

In 2012 I wrote a song that I consider my ‘declaration of independence’. I’m the BOSS of my own life, and no one else. No ghost, extraterrestrial creature, patriarchal god, religious book, political regime or group of influential people, will tell me how I should live my life. For instance, I will not let anyone force me to get vaccinations that could have harmful side effects. Just because people all over the world are getting vaccinated does not mean I will do the same. I will do what is good and healthy for me. I will buy the clothes and shoes that I like and I will get the hairstyle that makes me feel good. Not what society expects of me. I actually came up with the concept for this song back around November 1990, when I was 12 years old, but it was not until many years later, when I was an adult, that the song took on its current structure and lyrics. Originally, it was a song in my native language (Dutch), but now the lyrics are in English. On 15 February 2026, while cooking in my kitchen, I made a new recording with my smartphone. You can read the lyrics and listen to my a cappella song in the audio file below.

LIFESTYLE (lyrics)

Lifestyle
Don’t start copying another person’s lifestyle.
Don’t you imitate another country’s fashion style.
Create your own sophistication.
Your own celebration.

Lifestyle
Don’t let them suppress your authentic lifestyle.
Don’t you assimilate to a global work style.
Create your own civilization.
Your own revelation.

Diversity comes from a magnificent nature
giving you the freedom to be the guard of your own kingdom.
But sometimes you feel insecure
and there seems… there seems to be no cure.
You need to find…
You need to find a magnificent and a different…

Lifestyle
Feel the rhythm of your distinctive lifestyle.
Oehoe
Show the beauty of your God given lifestyle!



Ryan Maurice Roemer
Story written between February and September 2026


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Did Christ really appear to me in Paramaribo?

JUST OPEN THE DOOR (lyrics)

Talk about the beloved Son.
Don’t want him to be imprisoned.
Say a prayer for the only Son.
Get him out of this dirty prison!
He’s all by himself.
Why don’t you stop thinking of yourself?
Don’t you know he badly wants to come closer?
Yeah, he’s not just another fake poser.
So we’d better move one step closer!
We… we need the key to open the door.
Don’t feel scared anymore.
Just maybe there’s a way to save his life.
We must do what’s right.

A few days ago, on October 3rd, I wrote this song, and then on October 6th I made an a cappella recording of it with my smartphone. Click on the audio file below to listen to the song.

A very special event from my childhood inspired me to write this song. As a child I saw a Christ-like figure and I now wonder if this man was the real Christ himself or someone else. So in other words, did I see a supernatural being or just a mortal? It’s a rather bizarre question, I guess. After decades of carrying this secret memory around, I would like to share my story with you. My life on Earth is only temporary, so I better tell it now before it’s too late. After telling this story, I would also like to share my thoughts on the Bible, God, Satan, the concept of heaven and hell, and discrimination by fake Christians.

I was born (7 October 1978) and raised in the Netherlands. In July 1989 I was 10 years old and went on vacation to Suriname. I spent a day with my biological father who lived in Suriname. At that time he worked as a representative of the prosecution in Suriname. We drove through Paramaribo, the capital of Suriname, in his red sports car. He bought me a big white teddy bear and also a black female doll (Surinamese kotomisi doll) from a souvenir shop, because I loved dolls, even though I was a boy. I was a more girly boy, which was an early sign that I might be gay, by the way. We also went to the zoo that day and afterward I watched a movie with one of my cousins at my dad’s house in the afternoon. That same day, probably in the morning (or maybe it was the afternoon? Sorry, I don’t remember), he took me to the police station in the center of Paramaribo, because as a public prosecutor he could easily gain access there. He wanted me to see real prisoners. I thought that was a great idea and I was very curious. Inside the police station, to the left of the reception, my father showed me the jail cells at the back of the building where the prisoners were behind closed doors, so we could not see them directly, but there was a small observation window on every jail door. There was a wide corridor with prison cells on the left side and also on the right side. So we started with the cells on the left. My father lifted me up at every jail door, so that I was able to look through that little window. I saw many dark men of African descent. Those men looked at me while sitting on chairs. In most cells there was only one prisoner. I vaguely remember seeing two men in one cell. Every guy wore regular clothes: a T-shirt and pants. The men were very calm. There was also some other furniture in their cells such as a table or a bed. Finally, my father and I walked to the last jail cell on the right side of the wide corridor. He lifted me up again and I looked through that little window. I saw a man sitting on the floor, in the left corner against the wall, at the back of his room. He was the only prisoner with light brown skin and dark wavy hair down to his shoulders. I was surprised, because it was unusual for Surinamese men to have that long hairstyle and he did not look black (West African), Hindustani (Indian), Javanese or Chinese, which are the largest ethnic groups in Suriname. Or maybe he was mixed (biracial or multiracial)? So I wondered where he came from. Was this guy from Suriname or another country? Maybe a Latino from Brazil or an Arab from the Middle East? I did not know. Anyway, his cell was completely empty inside. There was no furniture (chair, table or bed) at all. There was only a small light on the ceiling. The man sat on the floor with his knees up. When he saw my eyes, he got up slowly. He was wearing a loincloth, the rest of his body was not covered. He was slim to slightly athletic and tall. Then he walked towards me, so I got scared and told my father to put me down on the floor. Then after a few seconds I asked him to lift me up again. I looked through the window again and saw the prisoner walk away, but then he turned around suddenly and walked towards me again. I got scared again and told my father that the prisoner was coming back, so I told him to put me down again. Then after a few seconds I told my father to lift me up again, so that I could look at the creepy prisoner one more time. The tall guy already walked away, but then he turned around again and came back to me! I told my father to put me down again. This went on for a while until the prisoner gave up, probably tired of this game, and didn’t turn around anymore. He walked back to the wall of his room and sat down on the floor again while leaning with his back against the wall. I asked my father to put me down again. Then we walked away and left the police station.

So this is a real-life event and not a dream, but the prisoner looked exactly like a man that I had seen in a dream in 1985, when I was 6 years old. In this dream a man reached out his hands to me and showed me the stigmata in both hands. I have talked about this before in another blog post. That’s why I wonder if this prisoner was Yeshua himself. Did the Christ appear to me in a cell at a police station in Paramaribo? This question will haunt me forever. To be honest, it took me many years to realize that the prisoner looked very much like the wounded man from my dream in 1985, although the prisoner had dark brown hair and the Christ from my dream had black hair, but I think hair color is less important, as this can change depending on the lighting in the room. They had the same type of face and body. Both men looked sweaty and wore loincloths. Why didn’t I notice this before? Strange that I was so blind. It’s one of the weirdest experiences in my life. I still can’t explain it, because it goes against all logic. I know that the historical Yeshua, who lived in the Roman province of Judaea, may have been a black African man with curly or kinky hair, but the man I saw in my 1985 dream looked different and seemed more like an Arab or a Palestinian. So which one is true? I don’t know, so the actual appearance of Christ remains a mystery. I think the Christ wanted to be recognizable to me, since I was just a little child, so that’s why he decided to appear as a more familiar version of himself, namely a man with light brown skin and long dark hair that fell to his shoulders. By the way, I believe the prisoner that I saw in 1989 was a real person and not a spirit. I’m not sure if my father saw the prisoner. Back in 2003 I asked my father in a letter if he could remember this event. He did respond to my letter, but he didn’t address my specific question about our visit to the police station. Perhaps he’d forgotten, because it took him a few months to reply. As an adult I haven’t had another opportunity to discuss this memory with my father, because I had very little contact with him after my 19th birthday. Fortunately, my mother still remembers that I was with him that day in July 1989. My cousin still remembers it too. Sadly, my father passed away on 6 January 2018, coincidentally also the day that I was baptized in a Catholic church in The Hague in 1980. As a child I did not see him often, because he lived in another country, but I do know that my father was a Christian. When I was about 9 years old, he visited my home in The Hague and gave me a present. It was a book, my first Bible, the children’s version with colorful illustrations. Most of the time I just looked at the pictures and sometimes I read stories about Genesis, Adam and Eve, David the Shepherd, the Binding of Isaac, the Nativity and Crucifixion of Yeshua, but I never read the Bible from start to finish, so there were a lot of stories about Christ that I didn’t know. Besides, the children’s version has been abbreviated quite a bit, as many stories and details from the adult version have been omitted. I was in my 20s when I decided to read the adult version of the Bible for the very first time, but I never finished the book, because I didn’t like it. Actually, I do like some parts of the New Testament, but I don’t like all that threat of making sinful people weep and gnash their teeth in Gehenna. I do not recognize Christ in these intimidating words, so I think it’s a lie. Christ never spoke in this nasty manner. It’s simply not how he thinks. He often spoke about forgiveness. Yeshua is not a sadist. I especially dislike the Old Testament because the Hebrew God is so unsympathetic, just not a nice guy at all. By the way, I don’t believe that God is an old white man with a beard who lives in heaven. In fact, I believe the real God does not look human at all. God is much greater than that. Secondly, I’ve never believed that Eve was created from Adam’s bone, which is one of the most misogynistic stories in human history. Third, a loving God would never ask a father to sacrifice his own son (Isaac) and would never kill children, as the evil Hebrew God did to Egyptian boys according to Exodus. Fourth, the Jews are not God’s chosen people. They should not have any privileges over other ethnic groups living in the Southern Levant, such as Muslim Palestinians and Arabs. That is discrimination. A loving God would love everyone. I have also never believed that the Hebrew God of the Old Testament and Christ of the New Testament are the same person. Christ never claimed to be God and never said that you should worship a human being. I believe the Bible is full of lies made up by evil men. The God mentioned in the Old Testament is not really a god, certainly not a loving one, and did not create the universe, but I do believe that Christ is an angel who came to Earth and tried to make people more tolerant of outcasts and scapegoats. He wanted to teach them about love. Gehenna is a lie. Maybe hell is a place in your heart and soul, filled with hate, but it’s certainly not a fixed physical location somewhere in the universe. A loving God would never ever create a place of eternal punishment. It’s barbaric. Evil men spin stories to put fear in your hearts. It’s simply brainwashing.

Of course, I also disapprove of the Hebrew God calling feminine homosexual men an abomination, as I’m a gay man myself. Yes, I’m glad there’s no medicine to cure me of this wonderful gay ‘disease’. Some Christians say it’s okay to have gay feelings, but not to act on them, which is even worse, because it means they want a gay man to remain single for the rest of his life. No love, no friendship. What’s the point of living if you’re forced to live by someone else’s man-made book, preventing you from being yourself and having real contact with people? Humans are social animals. Love is much older than the Torah, the Bible and the Quran. So yes, homosexuality is much older than all those books. You should not need permission from people around you just to date another adult man or woman. Another prejudice among Christians is that they call homosexuality and pedophilia the same. It’s simply a way to demonize gay men. Most gay men are not pedophiles. As a matter of fact, I think there are many more straight men who are pedophiles. So where does this prejudice against gay men come from? Perhaps from the negative Christian rhetoric about homosexuality in ancient Greece? Were all gay men in Greece really pedophiles? Because that seems to be what many people think. Or is that just a lie from homophobic Christian historians? Are Christians so much better? Why is there so much child abuse by priests and nuns in churches? Well, it’s a complicated subject and I won’t blame the sins of these churches on Christ because he never supported pedophilia. Although I’m very critical and skeptical of the Bible and the church, I still love Yeshua because I believe he would never bully or discriminate homosexual men, women or black people. He said that you should treat others the way you would like to be treated. Love your neighbor as yourself. Christ also disapproved of casting stones at women and scapegoats. In other words, he was a very peaceful and nonviolent man, probably an Essene (follower of John the Baptist). The Essenes were ascetics who were often unmarried and chose to remain single. So it saddens me that millions of mean-spirited people call themselves ‘Christians’, even though they clearly are not, and use Christ’s name to oppress LGBTQI, women and black people, because that was never Yeshua’s intention. Everything they do is the opposite of what Christ wanted to teach people. He never supported toxic hypermasculinity or white supremacism. In fact, he was not a white man. So people who do evil in Christ’s name are fascists and followers of the Antichrist, not of Christ. In other words, they are not real Christians.

I think I know who the devil is, because I have met him in dreams too. So I know the difference between Christ and the devil. And let me tell you, the devil does not look like a red-skinned or dark-skinned man with horns on his head, as we always see in paintings, illustrations and movies. The devil is much more likely to appear on Earth as an attractive light-skinned person in a suit and tie, because he will try to gain your trust. He knows that many people will look at him, listen to him and worship him. I believe that the Antichrist would choose to appear as a man and not a woman because white men tend to get more attention in our misogynistic and racist society. Moreover, evil is more present in men than in women. I know that many women can be violent psychopaths too, for example, female soldiers in the IDF aka IOF (Israeli Occupation Forces) which is committing genocide in Gaza in Palestine, but throughout human history most criminals (especially top criminals) have been men. It’s easier to seduce men into committing evil acts because most men simply cannot express tender emotions and want to make a lot of money quickly. They can’t give love because they are too selfish and that’s why this world is a mess. The Antichrist is the worst man of all. He is the most toxic male role model for young men and boys you can imagine. He will teach them to become narcissists. That’s why he deserves to be called the Antichrist. He will divide and conquer, support gun violence and instigate wars. He will never try to create a safe world for children because he doesn’t care about them. We are just numbers to him. This is the evil entity that y’all are dealing with. Wake up, people! The great castle is on fire! It seems like Gehenna or hell is a place on Earth right now, but it was not always like this, so where and when did it go wrong? I can imagine that many people believe this world was created by Satan and not by a loving God, as there is too much suffering on Earth. There have been too many genocides throughout history. I think one of the first genocides was the mass murder of Neanderthals, the original indigenous population of Europe and West Asia, about 40,000 years ago. They have been demonized and dehumanized by modern humans (Homo sapiens) who do not call them fully human, just as they did with black Africans in previous centuries. Sadly, there are still millions of white supremacists (e.g. Mormons) who believe that me and my African ancestors are not fully human and therefore have no right to happiness and freedom. They believe that black people are closer to monkeys because their faces look different and because many African countries are underdeveloped technologically and economically. So they think that most black people have a lower IQ. By the way, why do white supremacists think being related to monkeys is bad? I think monkeys are amazing and very intelligent animals. Now back to Neanderthals: in the 21st century Western scientists still believe Neanderthals are a different race or species (Homo neanderthalensis). It is believed they had a lower IQ because their brains functioned differently and they lived a simple life. Well, I don’t find this theory convincing. I think Neanderthals were simply a different ethnicity. When I see images of reconstructed Neanderthals, I see real people. On a side note, scientists say that Neanderthals were short because the average height for males was 1.68 meters (5’6″). But the average height for males in the Roman Empire (about 2,000 years ago) was the same. So in a period of roughly 38,000 years most modern humans (Romans) had not grown taller? I thought they were much taller than Neanderthals, so it doesn’t make any sense. Anyway, I suspect Neanderthals were massacred because they did not have Caucasian facial features. After the genocide of the Neanderthals by the so-called Caucasian Cro-Magnons, who probably originated from the Caucasus, many more genocides took place worldwide. So it makes sense that many people believe this world must have been created by Satan. But I’m inclined to believe that this world was originally created by a loving God and then hijacked by an evil spirit or a group of evil spirits who somehow managed to fill people’s hearts with hatred. So people decided to worship the wrong spirit(s). The irony is that all these mean-spirited people think they are entitled to go and live in an imaginary heaven somewhere in the clouds or some other dimension. But what will happen to this heavenly place when it’s filled with millions of nasty people from Earth? Well, this heaven would soon become a hellhole too, because if people have hatred in their hearts and souls while living on Earth, then all that hatred will not suddenly disappear when they fly to heaven in the afterlife. So I would definitely stay away from their ‘heaven’, because it’s not a real heaven. It’s the grand illusion.

Now back to my story about the prisoner in 1989. Perhaps the prisoner in a cell in Paramaribo was just an ordinary man who happened to look a lot like the Yeshua figure from my dream in 1985. But why did he behave that way? His behaviour was so different from all other prisoners at that police station. He tried to get closer to me, while the others did not! Even though he was just a mortal and not Christ himself, I believe that God sent him to me at that moment because God wanted to tell me something. And the message is, I guess, don’t forget about Christ! He has been abused by people for centuries, not only physically, but also mentally and emotionally. These Satanists changed Christ’s original identity and name (probably African or Asian) and turned him into a European blond ‘Jesus’. They misinterpreted his teachings and used them to commit and justify atrocities around the world. So I wonder if Christ appeared in my dreams because he wants me to help him restore his name and focus on his original message. By the way, this real-life event from 1989 was the reason for getting a recurring dream about visiting a Christ-like figure in prison when I was a teenager in high school in the 90s. But that’s another story.

Love,
Ryan Maurice Roemer
October 2025

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RODE LIJN / RED LINE demonstration in The Hague, May 18, to show support for Palestine

Watch the video above to see some highlights from the demonstration. I filmed many great moments with my mobile phone and edited this video.

On Sunday, May 18, the largest demonstration, called ‘Rode Lijn’ (in English: ‘Red Line’), took place in The Hague, Netherlands. It was the first time in over 20 years that more than 100,000 people participated in a political demonstration in our country. It was organized by various activist organizations, such as Oxfam Novib, The Rights Forum, Save the Children, Amnesty International and Doctors Without Borders. Most of the protesters were dressed in red-colored clothes, a symbol that we want to draw a red line, meaning no more financial support for Israel which is committing genocide in Gaza. It’s a message to our government that we want change. We are ashamed that the Dutch government still supports Israel. In our country it’s a major scandal that Geert Wilders, the far-right leader of the largest political party in the Netherlands, even supports Israel’s plan to ethnically cleanse Gaza, in other words to remove all Palestinians from Gaza. By the way, Geert wilders blocked me on Twitter, aka x.com, because I criticized his aggressive and racist statements towards black and brown people living in the Netherlands. Anyway, during the demonstration on May 18th we walked from Malieveld, a large public park where we gathered, to the International Court of Justice (ICJ) in the Peace Palace and then we walked to Binnenhof (a large building complex for the Dutch Parliament, official name ‘States General’, and the office of the Prime Minister) and then back to Malieveld. In total this walk was about 4 kilometers long. The next day I did feel some muscle pain in my legs, but I’m glad I participated. It was definitely worth it and one of the most important things I’ve done in my life. It was also the first time I took part in a demonstration. I live in Delft, a city right next to The Hague, so it was only about a 15 minute train ride to get there. I know The Hague very well because I was born and raised there and lived there most of my life, so I knew exactly where to go. I had told my mother in advance that I would go to The Hague for the demonstration. She liked it, but also said ‘Be careful’. I understand that a mother will always be a little worried, no matter how old you are, but fortunately there were no disruptions during the demonstration. No clashes between activists and police. It was a peaceful and beautiful event. Everyone enjoyed it and was happy to be there. We were all united: white, brown, black, old and young. Yes, even children were there with their parents. Fathers and mothers pushing strollers. Together we made history.

When I was a child, my aunt (an older sister of my mother) lived on the same street as me, namely A. van der Tangstraat in the Houtwijk residential area of The Hague. Between 1986 and 1990, every time I visited my aunt’s house across the street, I saw two large posters on the window of her office. In fact, anyone walking or cycling down our street could see those posters. One poster read: ‘Laat geld terugstromen naar Afrika’, translated in English: ‘Let money flow back to Africa’. The other poster read: ‘Free Nelson Mandela!’, with a large photo of him. So I saw Nelson’s poster every day for years until he was finally released from prison in 1990. As we all know, he eventually ended apartheid in South Africa and became the first elected president under the new constitution. Mandela, an activist who fought against apartheid, was known as a terrorist by the elite (white European colonists) in South Africa for many years. They demonized him and held him captive for 27 years, but today Mandela is seen as a hero. So now 35 years later, thousands of people took part in a demonstration to show their support for the Palestinians in Gaza and the West Bank, who have been fighting against the Israeli occupation and apartheid regime since 1948 (the first Nakba). And it’s South Africa that has filed a case at the ICJ against the state of Israel for commiting crimes against humanity in Gaza. Of course, Israel and its ally the United States justify their war in Gaza because Hamas is seen as a terrorist organization by Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu, the Israeli war cabinet, US presidents Joe Biden and Donald Trump, dozens of members of the US Congress and millions of Zionists worldwide. But according to many pro-Palestinian activists in Europe, the US and worldwide, Hamas is a militant resistance movement that has the right to receive support from the regime in Iran, Hezbollah in Lebanon and the Houthis in Yemen. After Hamas attacked and killed hundreds of innocent Israeli civilians on 7 October 2023, I was shocked, like many other people in the Netherlands. So I used to condemn Hamas and I still think it’s wrong to kill so many innocent people in Israel, but now that I’ve read more about the history and suffering of the Palestinians, which has given me some more wisdom, I simply cannot condemn Hamas anymore. On 14 November 2024 Francesca Albanese, United Nations Special Rapporteur on the occupied Palestinian territories, wrote on Twitter that up to 700 Palestinian children have been kidnapped by Isrealis each year for decades. So this could explain why many Palestinians have become vengeful toward Israel. On Twitter I have seen so many photos and videos of murdered or mutilated Palestinian men, women and children. The Isreali Occupation Forces (IOF), also known as Israel Defense Forces (IDF), has killed and maimed thousands of Palestinian children since 8 October 2023. Now that I have seen this and am aware that physical abuse was taking place before October 7, I understand that the Hamas attack of 10/7 is comparable to a slave rebellion. In the 19th century, during slavery, there were many slave revolts in Suriname, where my parents come from. The Maroons (rebellious Negroes) regularly attacked the plantations of Dutch slave owners, often only to free other African slaves. These attacks were very violent. But thanks to their fighting spirit and courage, slavery was abolished in Suriname in 1863. So I owe it to them that I was born a free black man. John Gabriel Stedman (1744 – 7 March 1797), officer of the Dutch States Army, wrote a book about the Maroons, entitled: ‘Narrative of a Five Years Expedition against the Revolted Negroes of Surinam’.

The genocidal war in Gaza has changed my view of the world, humanity and many countries, such as the US, UK and Germany, which have turned out to be the biggest financiers of Israel’s war. Germany is on the wrong side of history again. In World War 2 they were responsible for the Holocaust of European Jews and now in 2025 they are complicit in Israel’s genocide against the Palestinians. On 21 November 2024 the International Criminal Court issued arrest warrants for Netanyahu and Yoav Gallant, former Minister of Defense of Israel, and yet on April 6 French President Emmanuel Macron, despite his support for a ceasefire in Gaza, allowed Netanyahu to fly over France without arresting him. Does this mean that some or many European political leaders are afraid to actually do something about Netanyahu? Do the Zionists have this much power in Europe and the US? I’m still in shock after watching members of the US Congress give more than 50 standing ovations to Netanyahu on 24 July 2024. Does it mean they all sold their souls to AIPAC? Has the US government been hijacked by Zionism? It’s pretty obvious that Donald Trump is a Zionist and a fascist and so is his nasty Vice President JD Vance. What they did to DEI (diversity, equity, inclusion) is absolutely disgusting, because now we see how their anti-DEI policies have led to a rising unemployment rate among black people, especially black women in the US. By the way, billionaire Elon Musk, former Senior Advisor to the President and head of Department of Government Efficiency (DOGE), gave a Nazi salute at Trump’s inauguration on 20 January 2025. Wow! I’m still flabbergasted. I had a strong suspicion that he was a racist and a fascist, but I did not expect him to show it openly. During the 2024 US presidential election Netanyahu made it clear that he wanted Trump to win and he calls him the greatest friend of Israel. A few weeks after winning the election, February 26, Trump shared an AI generated video about Gaza on his Instagram account, showing plans for real estate developments in the Strip and calling it ‘Trump Gaza’. It’s the most bizarre thing I have seen in politics and it’s not funny. So what the hell is happening to US politics? I’m so disappointed in the US and humanity because it turns out that many people are really evil. I also notice that many celebrities (entertainers and influencers) choose to remain silent about the humanitarian crisis in Gaza. It makes me wonder if they would have been silent during the Holocaust in WWII or the Transatlantic African slave trade between the 16th and 19th centuries. If so many people, even millions of Christians worldwide, or maybe we’d better call them Christian Zionists, not only white Christians but also many black and brown Christians, continue to support Israel’s genocidal war, I must live in a very evil world. So I wonder: ‘Are they real Christians?’ Probably not because I don’t think that the Christ, if he walked around on our planet today, would support the Zionists. I think he would support the Palestinians and identify with them because they are the indigenous people of the Southern Levant. They have lived there for hundreds of years and many of them are descendants of the Jewish communities of Judaea. The level of violence against them is frightening and reminds me of the genocide of the indigenous peoples living in North America, South America, the Caribbean and Australia. As a descendant of African slaves, referring to the African slave trade in Suriname, I know the meaning and impact of displacement. I understand what the Palestinians are going through. I often wonder why I live in such a violent world because I’m not like this at all. I don’t belong here! So obviously I’m not happy that I’m part of this world and I’ll be glad when my time on this planet is finally done. By the way, at the end of this article I will tell a special dream I had in 1998. Christ appeared in my dream.

There are no words to describe the atrocities in Gaza. The IOF killed more than 200 journalists. On Twitter I followed the account of Palestinian journalist Hossam Shabat (born 10 October 2001 – died 24 March 2025) since the beginning of the genocide. After more than a year he was reunited with his mother. They were so happy together, but a few weeks later he was hit by an Israeli airstrike while driving his car. The IOF claimed that he was not a real journalist, but a member of Hamas. All lies! Israel is only using Hamas as an excuse to commit genocide in Gaza because the real plan of Netanyahu and Trump is to create a Greater Israel. In other words, the Israelis want to annex more territory. They have already occupied the Golan Heights after the fall of the Assad regime in Syria. Not only Palestinian journalists, but also many doctors, nurses, paramedics, teachers, scientists and professional athletes have been killed in Gaza. For example, paramedics tried to rescue a little girl, Hind Rajab (3 May 2018 – 29 January 2024), from a car that was shelled by the IOF, but unfortunately they were all killed. And recently, on May 23, a Palestinian doctor, Alaa al-Najjar, lost 9 of her 10 children when they were all killed in an Israeli airstrike on their home. A few days later her husband, dr. Hamdi al-Najjar, died of his wounds. Only one child, her 11-year-old son Adam, survived, but he is seriously injured and in the hospital. Because of these atrocities in Gaza, we must continue to speak out against Zionism. I wonder why the UN and pro-Palestinian countries have not yet launched a military intervention to stop the war and genocide in Gaza. Criticism of Israel is not anti-Semitic. So who is really anti-Semitic? Actually, Palestinians are Semitic, because they are natives of the Southern Levant, while the majority of Israelis (white Jews of European descent) are not Semitic. So that means that Zionists are anti-Semitic because they oppress Palestinians. Ironically, they have become the Nazis of the 21st century. Zionists weaponized anti-Semitism to silence people critical of Israel and justify the murder of Palestinians, who have been compared to the people in Amalek (Amalekites, mentioned in the biblical books of Samuel and Deuteronomy) by Netanyahu on 28 October 2023. Furthermore, we must not forget that Zionists don’t represent all Jews, as there are many amazing Jewish people who reject Zionism. For example, Jewish American politicians Jill Stein (Green Party) and Bernie Sanders (Democratic Party) are highly critical of Zionism. And in Israel too, there are many Jews who condemn the current war in Gaza. So these Israelis are protesting against their own government and some young Jewish men and women are even refusing to join and serve in the IOF. On top of that, on May 27th former Prime Minister of Israel, Ehud Olmert, said that Netanyahu and his entire Israeli war cabinet are a criminal gang that is committing war crimes in Gaza. In fact, this war does not help the Jewish people at all because it only creates more tension. Israeli politicial leaders are making life harder for Jews worldwide. I do think that hatred of Jews has increased, but that’s the fault of the fascist genocidal war cabinet in Israel. Let’s not forget that Islamophobia has also increased in the last 24 years after 9/11 in New York (which by the way turned out to be an inside job) and is really at its peak right now. Both Trump and former US president Biden showed very little empathy for the Palestinians in Gaza, while thousands of innocent civilians have been killed there. I know this has happened before, for example during the US war in Iraq in 2003-2011, but the difference is that this time in Gaza, many of the atrocities were live streamed on Twitter and other social media. We are all eyewitnesses to it now, because we can see it all on our smartphones. It’s mind-boggling that so many people who claim to be Christians, e.g. Trump and Biden, are giving the Israeli government a green light to slaughter Palestinian children. Didn’t Christ teach you to love your neighbor? What happened to that? That’s why I’m glad that the late Pope Francis openly said that Israel’s war in Gaza is terrorism and that he continued to push for a ceasefire, supported the Palestinians and called a Christian church in Gaza City every day.

Back in 2014 I made a video about nuclear disarmament and published it on YouTube and Vimeo. Sadly, in today’s world this dream seems far away again, as the threat of nuclear war has become quite great. In my video I also talked about Netanyahu and said that I did not like him because his speech at the 68th session of the United Nations General Assembly on 26 September 2013 was so aggressive, while the statement of Hassan Rouhani, former President of Iran, was much more peaceful. The contrast was so striking then. It was very clear that Netanyahu was warmongering and wanted to drag the US into a war with Iran, and he still does! If you listen to my reasoning in this 2014 video, you’ll notice that I was still brainwashed by my upbringing and the mainstream media, because the Netherlands was always very pro-Israel. So I learned this way of thinking in Dutch schools. In my video from 2014 I said I praised Israel for protecting LGBTQI rights and freedoms and for being the only gay-friendly country in the Middle East. Now I realize I was looking at Israel through rose-colored glasses. I’m embarrassed that I tried to pinkwash Israel. Of course, as a gay man I care about LGBTQI human rights, but I hate it when Israelis use LGBTQI to justify their genocidal war in Gaza. Now I see Israel for what it really is and it turns out to be anything but a democracy. It’s an apartheid state where Palestinians and black Africans are often discriminated against. Anyway, I was so happy to see that the activist group ‘Queers for Palestine’ was present at the Dutch demonstration on May 18th. That was a nice surprise. Yes!!! I’m so glad that many other gay men are standing up for the rights of the Palestinians. I know that practicing homosexuality is illegal in Palestine, but that does not give the Israelis the right to commit genocide against the entire population of Gaza. Israel, you will not fool us anymore! No more pinkwashing! We are wide awake now. Finally, I’d like to say that I used to be in favor of a two-state solution, but I am no longer. Now I think that Palestine should be freed from the river to the sea. Palestinians should have the right to live wherever they want in the Levant region. I’m not saying that all white Israelis should pack their bags and return to Europe or the US, as many of the younger generation were born in Israel. They can stay in the Southern Levant, but they will have to accept that they live in Palestine, not Israel. Stop stealing the land and homes of the Palestinians! Palestine must be completely decolonized, just like South Africa in the 1990s. But ultimately, the Palestinians must decide their own future. Even if the Palestinians and Hamas were to accept a two-state solution, I would still respect and support their decision. Hopefully better times will come soon for the Palestinians and most importantly, a permanent ceasefire. Stop the killing! Make love, not war!

I have mentioned the Holy Christ before, but I would like to elaborate on him. In November 1998 when I was 20 years old, Christ appeared in my dream. I recognized him because he looked exactly like the man I had met in a dream when I was 6 years old. He has appeared in many dreams since late 1984 or early 1985. So this started when I was 6. As a child and teenager I paid little attention to Christianity, so that’s why it’s all the more special to me that Christ appeared in my dreams, but I didn’t realize how special it was at the time, although I did write down my dreams on a piece of paper. So in this 1998 dream I had an out-of-body experience while I was sleeping in bed. I dreamed that I walked into a public building and sat down by myself in front of a large movie screen. As I waited for the movie to start, I felt my spirit leaving my body and the building. My spirit flew higher and higher into space where I could see millions of stars. In the distance I saw an angelic brown woman with long black curly hair, dressed in a long white dress, standing or floating among the stars in the cosmos. She looked at me. At first I thought she was my mother, but later I realized that she must have been another woman. I think she’s a real angel and probably the Holy Mother of Christ. After meeting her I continued and flew higher and higher until I saw a huge visual screen in the cosmos, which depicted an event from the past. At first it felt like I was watching a movie, but then I was in the movie, so this cosmic visual screen was like a time machine. Suddenly I was standing in a crowd and saw what a few Roman soldiers were doing to Christ, who was standing in a large square. It was the most horrific physical abuse I have ever seen, so I will not go into the details. He fell to the ground and for a moment I thought he was dead, but he never died and never gave up, so he resurrected right before our eyes, standing on his two feet again, because all his wounds were healed in a few seconds. Then I woke up. After this nightmare it was crystal clear to me that the Roman colonists in Judaea were very evil and racist towards the indigenous (Jewish) population and responsible for the death of Christ. The Romans were white men from Europe, specifically Italy. As far as I know, the Jewish communities of Judaea (Pharisees, Sadducees, Essenes) had nothing to do with the murder of Christ, so Christians today need to stop blaming the Jews for his death because that’s a lie. Probably there were only a few Jewish men who did not like him and saw his growing popularity as a threat, especially after the cleansing of the temple, but does that mean they all wanted to kill him? I doubt it. The majority of Jewish people loved him very much and welcomed him with open arms. I don’t know exactly what the role of Judas (one of the discipels) was in Holy Week. According to the New Testament he betrayed Christ on Holy Thursday, aka Maundy Thursday, but I don’t know if this really happened or was fabricated by the Romans, who became Christians only a few centuries later and perhaps wanted to clean their hands and blame the Jews for his death. The Roman Emperor Constantine I, also called Constantine the Great (born 25 July 306 – died 22 May 337), was the first Christian emperor and many scholars say that he ordered Eusebius of Caesarea, a Christian historian from Syria Palaestina (a Roman renaming for the province of Judaea in 136-390 AD), to publish the Codex Vaticanus (a manuscript of the Greek Bible) around 300-350 AD. I assume this is one of the earliest published versions of the Bible. It is preserved in the Vatican. Another early version from the 4th century, the Codex Sinaiticus (with Alexandrian text-type), is preserved in the British Library. The reason I say this is because I think we need to be aware that the Bible was probably written to serve the interests of the Roman Empire, which meant that Bible texts had to be approved by the emperors. “So don’t be too negative about the Romans in the Bible!” I guess this was the message that Christian historians received from the Roman emperors. So based on my common sense I assume that this so called Holy Book was manipulated by the Roman elite. Since the emperors were white men from Europe, I wonder if they also commissioned visual artists to whitewash Christ and depict him in paintings as a white European rather than a brown or black Nazarene from Judaea. So the indigenous population of Judaea, aka Syria Palaestina, aka modern-day Palestine, has been oppressed for a very long time. And we, believers of Christianity, have been manipulated and brainwashed for centuries. So here we are in 2025! Today the genocidal Zionists in Israel and the US Empire (or the United States of Israel???) are just as manipulative as the Romans. But unfortunately, they are even more violent and dangerous than the Romans and the German Nazis because current weapons technology (e.g. drones) is much more advanced and they openly pride themselves on killing Palestinians. So Zionists must be stopped at all costs. And I’m talking about Jewish Zionists and Christian Zionists. They are the synagogue and church of Satan. They say they are Jews or Christians, but they are not! Christ began as a follower of John the Baptist, probably an Essene. It is said that the Essenes disapprove of violence, so I think that Christ would agree that a true Jew or Christian would never rape the ancient land of the Southern Levant with thousands of bombs. According to experts, the total bombing of Gaza is equivalent to six Hiroshimas. Today over 80% of the Strip is destroyed. It’s sacrilege! Only racist Satanists would disrespect and rape the Southern Levant! They have not only disturbed the peace of the Palestinians, but also the peace of millions of animals and ancient nature spirits living in the Southern Levant. They are all refugees now. Displaced!

The Dutch demonstration on May 18 also affected me personally, even though I don’t live in the Southern Levant, because in July/August 2023 I bought a holiday apartment in Hurghada, Egypt. I don’t want parts of Egypt, such as Hurghada, to become part of Greater Israel. This is what far-right political leaders such as Bezalel Smotrich, Minister of Finance in Israel, want. At the end of my Red Line video I included a song called ‘Put them in their cage’ that I wrote in 1992 when I was 13 years old and being bullied in high school. On May 30th I made a brand new recording (a cappella) while cooking in my apartment kitchen. I decided to play this song at the end of the video because the lyrics really sum up how I feel about these evil genocidal Zionist world leaders and everyone who supports them. Put them in jail!

PUT THEM IN THEIR CAGE (lyrics)

Horses need to run free.
Birds need to fly over the sea.
Some people will try to take away your freedom.
Don’t believe their good intentions.
Blinding lights tricking your eyes.
That’s what they will try.
And you feel something ain’t right.
So defend your territory!
Put them in their cage! Criminals!
Put them in their cage!
If there’s not another way to live your life with some grace.
Put them in their cage! Aha ah!
Put them in their cage! Aha ah!
If they misbehave, I’ll show them their place.
Put them in their cage!
Lock them up, lock them up, lock them up!
Lock them up, lock them up, lock them up!

Click on the audio file below to listen to the song.

Thank you for reading this new article on my blog.

Ryan Maurice Roemer
Written between May 29 and June 2, 2025

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If you’d like to listen to my 2014 podcast video on nuclear disarmament, click on the link below.

https://ryanmauriceroemer.com/2014/03/23/the-2014-nuclear-security-summit-in-the-hague-fight-for-nuclear-disarmament/

If you’d like to read more articles about the Dutch demonstration on May 18 and some other topics I discussed, click on the links below.

https://www.euronews.com/my-europe/2025/05/19/tens-of-thousands-protest-in-the-hague-to-demand-dutch-government-action-on-gaza-war
https://www.reuters.com/world/tens-thousands-protest-hague-against-gaza-war-2025-05-18/
https://x.com/DropSiteNews/status/1924164411775914122
https://x.com/FranceskAlbs/status/1856865954472264117?lang=en
https://www.middleeasteye.net/news/france-criticised-allowing-netanyahus-plane-use-its-airspace
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Gabriel_Stedman
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DGhfpgHsOg6/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link
https://www.aljazeera.com/features/2025/3/25/on-a-journey-family-mourns-hossam-shabat-journalist-killed-by-israel
https://x.com/hossamshabat?lang=en
https://www.hindrajabfoundation.org/perpetrators/on-her-7th-birthday-we-know-who-killed-hind-rajab-and-were-taking-them-to-court
https://www.middleeasteye.net/news/gaza-doctor-receives-bodies-her-seven-children-while-duty
https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/c0eq9lq7xr1o
https://www.middleeastmonitor.com/20231029-netanyahu-declares-holy-war-against-gaza-citing-the-bible/
https://www.gov.il/en/pages/statement-by-pm-netanyahu-28-oct-2023
https://www.haaretz.com/opinion/2025-05-27/ty-article-opinion/.premium/enough-is-enough-israel-is-committing-war-crimes/00000197-0dd6-df85-a197-0ff64a5c0000
https://www.theguardian.com/world/2025/may/27/former-israeli-pm-ehud-olmert-says-his-country-is-committing-war-crimes
https://apnews.com/article/pope-francis-israel-hamas-war-gaza-31f1755f8426ec81cb07b29bff3db70e
https://www.bradford.ac.uk/news/archive/2025/gaza-bombing-equivalent-to-six-hiroshimas-says-bradford-world-affairs-expert.php
https://www.middleeastmonitor.com/20241120-smotrich-has-confirmed-that-the-quest-for-greater-israel-is-real/
https://www.facebook.com/MiddleEastEye/videos/in-a-documentary-produced-by-arte-israeli-finance-minister-bezalel-smotrich-says/1044626283657314/

Here are some interesting articles for people who can also read Dutch.

https://nos.nl/collectie/13959/artikel/2567762-massaal-protest-in-den-haag-tegen-israel-standpunt-kabinet-rustig-verlopen
https://www.ad.nl/binnenland/stop-de-aanvallen-of-verwarde-mensen-politici-verdeeld-na-protest-100-000-demonstranten-voor-gaza~a4572127/
https://www.oxfamnovib.nl/rode-lijn
https://www.savethechildren.nl/praktische-informatie-rode-lijn-18-mei-den-haag-malieveld?cta_referrer=banner2
https://rightsforum.org/op-3-mei-gedenken-we-hind-rajab-en-spreken-we-de-regering-aan/
https://nvj.nl/actueel/hossam-shabat-een-aangekondigde-moord-in-gaza
https://www.ad.nl/buitenland/arts-alaa-verliest-negen-van-haar-tien-kinderen-bij-luchtaanval-gaza-alleen-11-jarige-adam-overleeft~a12c0569/

‘Put them in their cage’ (song) and a story about my encounter with an angelic being in dreams

Horses need to run free.
Birds need to fly over the sea.
Some people will try to take away your freedom.
Don’t believe their good intentions.
Blinding lights tricking your eyes.
That’s what they will try.
And you feel something ain’t right.
So defend your territory!
Put them in their cage! Criminals!
Put them in their cage!
If there’s not another way to live your life with some grace.
Put them in their cage! Aha ah!
Put them in their cage! Aha ah!
If they misbehave, I’ll show them their place.
Put them in their cage!
Lock them up, lock them up!

Recorded: 27 October 2021

If you would like to hear this song, click on the video above. It’s an a cappella ballad like most of my songs and it feels a bit like reciting a poem to me. I wrote this little song when I was 13 years old in May or June of 1992, so that’s a long time ago, it was one of the first songs I wrote in the English language because English is not my native language, but I did make a few changes to the lyrics in 2021 when I decided to re-record this song. I no longer have the original recording from 1992. To be honest, I had forgotten this song for a long time, but a very special dream from 2017 reminded me of this old song again. In this dream I tried to protect a sweet and innocent horse from a very evil man. Horses have often appeared in my dreams since childhood. This started back in 1988 when I was 10 and was bullied at school. Usually I met a black horse on the beach near the sea, but sometimes also in the city (in dreams). I believe God sends them to me. They are my guardian angels in this life. So here’s the dream from 2017 that I would like to share with you. Actually, I had already posted this dream on my blog in 2019, but in this older version some details were missing and I also found some errors in the use of English words, so I decided to post an updated version with a more accurate description of this dream and also better English (hopefully). If you’re interested, you can read my dream below.

On 20 June 2017 I got another dream
about a funfair. At the fair there is a very
large and eye-catching horse. This horse is
taller than an African elephant. He is my
companion at the fair. It’s my job to take
care of him. During a break the giant white
horse is standing on a small field next to
the fair. I sit on the ground behind him
while combing the extraordinarily long hair
on his tail. His wavy hair lies on the ground
and resembles a four meter long wedding
veil. After a while the evil boss of the fair
appears and walks to the horse. This guy
is a giant too. He has the body of a human
being, but his skin resembles the skin of a
lizard or a snake. The big boss stands right
next to the giant stallion while speaking
to the horse in a very commanding way.
I can feel the gentle giant horse is scared.
I hope the evil boss won’t be able to see
me behind the horse’s body, because I’m
much smaller. Secretly, I try to continue
trimming the hair evenly on his tail, but I
don’t have enough time to finish the job,
because the evil giant has seen me and
starts walking towards me. Suddenly his
giant body grows even bigger and taller:
maybe 30 meters tall. Obviously, he wants
to intimidate me. His skin is green and his
head is bald. The evil boss uses his giant
foot to step on me like I’m just a little
mouse and then he wants to walk on like
nothing happened. I feel humiliated, so I
get very angry and take revenge. I stretch
out my arms to hold on to his big foot and
then I pull his big leg up in the air as I start
flying higher and higher. By the way, I’ve
had the ability to fly in dreams for decades.
So the evil giant loses his balance and falls
on his back on the ground. I let go of his
foot and then I start using the power of my
mind to tie him to the ground. The startled
giant screams desperately: ‘What the fuck
is happening?!’ Magically, the earth under
the evil giant changes into a little prison or
grave pit. From the earthly ground multiple
chains appear, tying his arms, chest and legs
to the pit, so that he can’t move anymore.
His body is half buried. He looks at me and
knows I have defeated him for all eternity.
The tables are turned. I’m the boss from
now on. I start flying in circles closer and
closer to him. The skin of the evil giant has
become red or orange. It looks like the skin
of a lizard. I can see the fear in his yellow
eyes as he looks at me. The tamed evil giant
doesn’t look so very large anymore. He
looks much smaller now, maybe 4 meters
tall. Then this devil starts using the power
of his mind to discourage me coming closer
to him, so it becomes a mental telepathic
battle. But I persist and keep flying closer
and closer to his grave and when I’ve come
really close to his big head, I raise my right
hand to slap and scratch the cheek of his
face. But only one second before my hand
and fingernails reach his face, I suddenly
wake up in my bed. Everything is back to
normal again. The dream has ended.

Horses continued to appear in my dreams
in the years after 2017, so I would like to
share one more special dream I had on
28 January 2024. Like a seagull I am flying
near a big sea under a dim sky. From the
sky I see a large and dark brown or black
horse lying on the ground in front of an
unknown large building that is only about
50 meters away from the sea. I also see
an unknown male figure standing right
next to the horse. He tries to encourage
the insecure horse to get back up. I know
and remember that the horse used to be
able to fly, but due to a serious trauma
he stopped flying in the sky, so that’s why
he has been on the ground for a long time.
Surprisingly, the tired horse finally gets up
after a few minutes. We feel so relieved.
As soon as he gets back on his four legs,
he starts walking again. The horse walks
away from the unknown male figure and
walks towards me. Then I start to wonder
if he would be able to fly again. The dark
horse walks slowly at first, but soon after
he starts walking faster and faster until
he’s running like a pro again. The color of
his coat changes from dark to orange-red
and he begins to radiate more and more
light. So the risen beast is surrounded by
a large aureola. The horse is running to
me, he comes closer and closer, and then
miraculously two large bird-like wings,
hidden all the while in his thick red coat,
pressed flat against his body like a bird’s,
become visible. So the hair of its coat is
thick and long. Then suddenly the great
horse speads its enormous wings in front
of me, takes off and begins to fly again
through the air and over the sea, shining
like a white light. I’m so happy for him
and start yelling loudly, just to cheer him
on and celebrate his victory. Then the
big horse suddenly stops for a moment
while floating in the air (above the sea)
and looks at me lovingly. I’ll never forget.
There’s something human about him. It
feels like a man is looking at me, but not
an ordinary man. This being is celestial.
Maybe extraterrestrial? The risen horse is
now fully illuminated, giving him a white
ghostly appearance in the dim sky. Then
he suddenly starts flying again and flies
right past me, in what looks like a kind of
dive. I also start flying again near the sea
and coast and keep yelling loudly like a
seagull. The dim sky turns into daylight
and thousands or millions of sea animals
emerge from the sea: leaping dolphins
and other large fish and giant creatures
that resemble dinosaurs from an ancient
era. All these sea creatures are so very
happy and are jumping and swimming
in the same direction towards the shore.
They all celebrate the great return of the
flying horse. It is the biggest party I have
ever seen. Then I wake up from this wild
dream and look at my clock. It’s 9:56 AM.
After a few minutes I get up and walk to
the table in my living room and write my
dream on a piece of paper.

Was it just a dream? I absolutely loved my dream, but about two weeks later (in February) I told this dream to my mother Patricia and her reaction was quite sad. She was afraid that this meant that someone we love would say goodbye and leave us. Well, she was right.

Sadly, my godmother (Aunt Wine) passed away suddenly on 23 February 2024. She’s one of the most loving women I have ever known in this life. I have known her all my life. On 6 January 1980, when I was 1 year old, I was baptized in a Catholic church in my hometown of The Hague in the Netherlands. My mother Patricia chose Aunt Wine, her brother’s wife, as my godmother because they were close like real sisters. Aunt Wine was the best godmother you could wish for. But in December 2023 she suddenly felt very unwell in her own home in Paramaribo, the capital of Suriname, the country where my parents and other family come from. It turned out that she had an illness and therefore had to be hospitalized for weeks. The chance of survival was very small, but she miraculously managed to stay alive with the love and support of her family in Suriname. Eventually she was allowed to go home, but she still had to stay in bed all day because she was very weak. We were all hopeful that she would be able to recover, but then she suddenly passed away. We were all in shock. One of the saddest days, weeks and years of my life. So my mother called me in the middle of the night to tell me the terrible news. I’ve never heard my mother cry so loudly, even louder than when her own mother (my grandmother) passed away at the age of 95 in July 2019. It’s painful for my mother and me because after Aunt Wine’s hospitalization we did not have the chance to see her alive again. The Netherlands is far away from Suriname. But we were present at her funeral in Paramaribo on March 4. The ceremony in the Cathedral of Suriname was beautiful. It’s difficult to accept her sudden death and I often feel sad. For example, I have not recorded any new songs this year. But sometimes I still see my aunt or hear her voice in dreams, so that gives some comfort. My aunt and I visited a butterfly farm on the island of Aruba in 2012. That was her idea. So I believe she must have become a butterfly and flown to another, more loving, beautiful and peaceful world in the afterlife. God will take care of her.

Even though my godmother passed away this year, I still believe that my dream about the flying horse means something more than saying goodbye. I sincerely believe that this angel tried to tell me that something phenomenal is going to happen soon in this sad and war-torn world. He has risen from the ashes and will return to put an end to all injustice. God sent him to me so that I know there’s more between heaven and earth. There’s so much more than just material things. People are so focused on what they see on the outside. When they look at me, they see a brown or black man who is gay and that has become my main identity in this world, but what they don’t see is my spirit, my soul. God loves everyone, no matter what you look like or who you love, as long as you know the difference between good and bad. In other words, don’t be a sadist. Let another person or animal be free. Have morals, there’s nothing wrong with that. Yet I believe I won’t find God in a church, mosque, synagogue, temple or a so-called holy book. I’m not saying that a holy place where people gather is bad because it is possible to find some inspiration there, but I simply don’t consider it the ‘official’ house of God. I don’t like it when people impose their religion on me because I know that many of them are pushing a political agenda. They want power and money and want to take away the freedom of others. For thousands and thousands of years human beings lived happily without books. Now suddenly they need a holy book that tells them how they should live??? I believe there’s only one place you can find God and that is in your own heart and soul, because your spirit is a part of God or could be a part of God. So allow yourself to see what is not immediately visible on the surface of the sea. Don’t be afraid to go a little deeper. Dare to follow your dream. I’m aware that not all dreams are good as there are demonic entities that will appear in some or many dreams. I have seen them and know they will try to distract you or even harass you. But there are also good dreams. Yes, there are angelic beings in the universe. So don’t stop dreaming! Especially today, we must continue to believe that love is possible.

Thanks for reading this post and visiting my blog and feel free to check out some older posts. I have published many songs and some dreams and stories on my blog.

Ryan Maurice Roemer
Written on 20-22 November 2024

Below are two old family photos from childhood.

Baptism, 6 January 1980, from left to right: the priest, my mother Patricia, Aunt Wine and my father Ramon

My baptism on 6 January 1980. My Christian name (baptismal name) is Johannes Paulus.

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‘Tears of blood’ (song) and the memory of horror (the crucifixion of Christ)

Crying…
Tears of blood…
Tears of blood…
It’s raining blood.
Blood falling out of the sky.
My face covered with blood.
My heart…
My soul…
Crying!

I wrote this little song on 6 January 2012 and the video was shot on 2 February 2012. I was thinking about abused animals when I wrote it. People should treat animals with more respect, especially large animals. They don’t belong in a small cage (e.g. gorillas) or swimming pool (e.g. orcas) and should be allowed to live freely in the wild. Domestic animals such as cattle and horses should also not be used for entertainment and sports. I don’t like bullfighting and hope this sadistic ‘sport’ will one day be banned worldwide. The matador thrusting a sword through the body of a bull is one of the most gruesome images I’ve seen. I’m glad I saw this on my TV screen and not in real life, but even though my viewing experience was limited to a TV screen, I can’t unsee the horror. I can’t forget what I saw. It feels real because what happened was real. It reminded me of what happened to the body of Christ.

My parents separated in the Summer of 1983. Around Christmas 1984 or Easter 1985, my mother and I visited my father who had come to the Netherlands on holiday and was staying at his sister’s house in Oud-Beijerland. I’m not sure which date is correct as it’s been too long, but Easter 1985 seems more likely to me. In the evening my mother and I went home (in The Hague) and during that night Yeshua (the Christ) appeared in my dream. I was 6 years old and knew very little about him because I did not know the Bible and my mother and I never went to church or said prayers, even though I had a rosary on the wall in my bedroom. I often looked at the male figure on the cross of my rosary and wondered who that dead man with long straight hair was. I knew my parents called him God or the Son of God, but I often wondered why they believed this and why he was crucified. I thought it was so sad and cruel. Well, my dream explained who he was. In this dream Yeshua, my father Ramon and I were together in a small flying machine high in the sky. I looked out the big wide window and saw clouds everywhere and thought I was in heaven! Then I walked to a bench behind me to sit down. Next to me, on my right, sat my father, whom I rarely saw in real life. He sat near the window. On my left was Yeshua, wearing only a loincloth, sitting directly across from me on another bench. He looked very tired and leaned with his back against the wall as he talked to my father, I don’t know what they talked about. Then Yeshua moved forward and stretched out his arms and showed me the stigmata in both hands. I was shocked and felt so sad for him when I saw a hole in the palm of his hands. I could see right through both holes. He was in a lot of pain because the wounds in his hands were still fresh, although I don’t remember seeing blood on his hands. Maybe a little? I’m not sure. I think his hands looked clean. I understood that he was the godlike man who died on the cross and I assumed that the crucifixion must have taken place recently because he was still recovering from the pain. It’s the first childhood dream I can remember.

So this dream taught me about the resurrection of the Christ, but when I was six, I had no idea that people called Yeshua’s rise from death a ‘resurrection’. In my native language (Dutch) this would be translated as ‘opstanding’. I didn’t know this word. For years I believed that the ‘resurrection’ of Christ occurred only in my dream and not in his real life on Earth because I did not know the Bible well, even though my father gave me a children’s Bible when I was a little older. Most of the time I just looked at the illustrations. I was too lazy to read the stories. When I was a teenager, maybe 14 or 15, I finally discovered that the resurrection was a real event in the life of Christ according to the Bible. For the first time I read that Christ’s tomb was empty and that he continued to walk around Judaea showing people the stigmata. I read these stories in school because I went to a Catholic high school. That’s when I slowly started to realize that my 1985 dream was not just a dream. The Christ was really trying to tell me something. It’s not that I didn’t care about this dream because I wrote it down on paper in the Summer of 1990 when I was 11 years old, but I simply underestimated the power of my dream. Perhaps there’s another reason that Christ appeared in my dream. In the summer of 1984, while vacationing in France, I first learned that death exists. I was five years old, and until then, I had thought I would live forever, but then my stepfather told me that life ends when someone dies. It was the first time I became aware of death. The fact that life would eventually end made me sad. So I wonder if Christ appeared in my dream, just a few months later, to tell me not to worry, because there is life after death.

I can’t unsee what I saw in this dream. Yeshua is alive! I can’t pretend he’s not real because I’ve seen him in this dream and many more dreams over the years, but he only showed the stigmata once and that was in my first dream and never again. In this dream from 1985 Yeshua looked like an Arab Palestinian man with long straight black hair, even though he’s not a Muslim and there were no Muslims in Judaea until the 6th century AD and the name ‘Palestinian’ was probably not used around that time. On the other hand, I assume that many Palestinians are mixed, so they probably also have genes from the Jewish and Christian communities of Judaea (the Pharisees, Sadducees, Essenes and Nazarenes), so perhaps the historical Yeshua did look like some Palestinian men today. I think the Christ wanted to look recognizable to me, so he appeared in my dream with long straight hair, a short beard and a loincloth, because that’s the man I remembered from my rosary.

But in some other dreams, when I was a few years older, Yeshua looked like a North African man (ancient Egyptian/Nubian/Berber) with short curly black hair (like an afro), although Arab Palestinians can also have curly hair. By the way, there’s also a small community of black Palestinians who often claim to have lived in the Southern Levant (Judaea/Canaan) for thousands of years. Anyway, Yeshua looked different in some dreams, so it took me a while to realize it was the same man. I believe that the Jewish and Christian communities of Judaea and their ancestors, the ancient Israelites of Canaan, are descended from the ancient Egyptians. Judaism started in Egypt. So this might explain why Yeshua looked African in other dreams. I think he decided to reveal his real appearance to me when I was a teenager. For example, in April 1996 I was 17 years old and dreamed that I was on a small island. I was there with a male friend. It was the same type of man that I had met in my 1985 dream. Only this time he looked a bit younger, like a man in his 20s, and he had shorter hair, no beard, and was wearing a T-shirt and shorts. So it felt like I had always known him, even though I had never met him in real life. My friend and I decided to leave the dark forest, so we carried our wooden raft to the beach. I looked at my friend for a moment as we stood on the sunny beach, with our feet in the water. He was a few inches taller and had a brown complexion and black curly hair. I was a little surprised because just a few minutes ago (in the dark forest) I thought or assumed he was a light-skinned man with straight black hair, but then on the beach I realized he was actually a man of color with African hair type. It felt like I could see him clearly for the first time in daylight. Then I turned my attention back to the wooden raft. We were in a hurry, so we climbed onto the wooden raft and sailed out to sea. While we were sailing, the sea suddenly became very wild with huge waves (as high as e.g. the Eiffel Tower), but those waves did not harm us, so miraculously we were able to sail on quietly. Then I woke up. For a long time I wondered who that mysterious friend was, but later in life I realized that it was the Christ himself again. I also learned that he was able to calm a storm on the Sea of Galilee. The wooden raft in my dream might have been a symbol for the cross that Yeshua carried. In 1996 I made a color drawing of this little island surrounded by waves, but I did not save it, so I don’t have it anymore. Eventually, I realized that the racial ambiguity of my island friend could also be a reference to my black (biracial) father, who left me and my mother in summer 1983, and my white stepfather who had raised me from the age of four. I did not have a good relationship with either of them when I was a teenager, so I guess that’s why Christ decided to act as a guardian or a sort of father figure.

Since October 7th (my birthday), so many children have died in the Gaza Strip. According to multiple news sources, thousands of Palestinian children have been killed in the Israel-Hamas war. The deaths of Israeli children on 10/7 is also heartbreaking, even though their numbers are much smaller. I just can’t believe that the ancient land of Canaan has become the center stage for the worst atrocities in the world and in human history. It’s also the least safe place for children. Just like animals, children are the most vulnerable creatures on Earth. They need our protection and deserve a good life. I believe that God loves all children: black, white, brown, gay, straight, bisexual, male, female, androgynous, hermaphrodite, crossdresser, Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, etc. People who deny a child a safe environment and support an apartheid regime (Israel) that continues to bomb, injure and maim Palestinian children, both physically and mentally, should be a wake-up call to all of us. We must be more vigilant than ever before and try to stop this suffering once and for all. I consider this an attack not only on the Palestinians, but also on the land and the spirits of Canaan. Being a child in this world, especially in Gaza, is often a terrible and traumatic experience. I’ve seen horrific images from Gaza on the internet. For example, a young girl lying on her back on the ground because her legs were blown off and an 8-year-old boy shot in the head in Jenin, West Bank. The sadism is frightening and intimidating. Now that we’ve seen it, we can’t unsee it. We can’t look away anymore. Sadism is real and it’s a mental illness that destroys all morality and humanity in this world. I don’t understand why all these wars go on and on and on and why many psychopathic war criminals have thousands or even millions of followers. It’s hopeful to see so many demonstrations worldwide in support of the Palestinians, but I still sometimes wonder: Is hatred stronger than love in this world? Is homo sapiens a failed experiment?

So this is my final post for 2023. What a terrible year for humanity! It’s gonna be another sad Christmas.

Ancient Spirits of Canaan and the Levant! I’m calling you! You have inhabited these regions for thousands and even millions of years, long before humans existed. Rise from the clouds, the mountains, the forests and the depths of the seas and unite and let your roar be heard! Get ready for 2024!

Ryan Maurice Roemer
9 December 2023

A trip to there (lyrics)

It was on a Sunday, thinking about Monday.
I was ready to see another place somewhere else.

Are you ready to make, to make a trip to there?
Are you ready for me?
Because I need somebody there.

Driving on the highway, dreaming of a new way.
I had to recognize there’s a different way to travel.

Are you ready to make, to make a trip to there?
Are you ready for me?
Because I need somebody there.

Are you ready to make, to make a trip to there?
Are you ready for me?
Because I need somebody there.

There’s a different way.
There must be a different way.

I wrote this song in 1993 when I was about 14 years old. So this song is 30 years old! If you’d like to hear it, then click on the video above. I shot this video on 11 June 2011 when I was 32 years old. There is a language error in the lyrics. Sometimes this happens because English is not my native language and I rarely speak English. I always speak Dutch because I live in the Netherlands. I should have written “Are you ready to take a trip there?” instead of “Are you ready to make a trip to there?”. So that’s bad English, I guess, but it doesn’t really matter to me. I can’t change the recording and still like this song and feel nostalgic about it, even though the lyrics are not that special. It’s quite confronting to see this old video after 12 years! I was so nervous recording this song. I was alone in the living room when I recorded it and yet I was so nervous! I can clearly see the stress in my body language and my stiff hand and arm movements. So my conclusion: I was simply not born to perform on stage in front of an audience because I couldn’t handle my nerves. I better sing in my living room. My body language in this video is not elegant and graceful, but I’ve accepted my shortcomings. That’s the way I moved while singing in 2011. Another thing that’s funny… when I wrote this song and sang “Because I need somebody there”, I actually meant “Because I need a boyfriend there”! When I was 14 years old I already knew that I was gay, but I was still afraid to openly sing about that feeling in my songs and I didn’t want my family to hear it, so that’s why I decided to keep this little song gender neutral.

Ryan Maurice Roemer
29 November 2023

Gaza is like a modern concentration camp in the 21st century. Save the Palestinians!

Back in 1997 I met a Holocaust survivor.
Actually, I wanted to publish this story on
National Remembrance Day in Holland in
May 2024. Since there’s a war in Gaza right
now, I thought it might be a better idea to
discuss this topic now. I also believe that
God doesn’t want me to wait until next
year. Therefore, this article is now being
completed.

A long time ago I met a Holocaust survivor.
At that time I was an 18 year old student.
Early in the morning my stepfather told me
the bad news of Diana, Princess of Wales,
killed in the most horrific car accident in
Paris. I was so shocked and got up from
my bed and went downstairs to watch the
news on TV together with my parents. It
was such a sad start to the day. After the
news I went to shower and prepare for my
trip from The Hague to Leiden University.

So on 31 August 1997 I was waiting at the
bus stop near the intersection of Sportlaan
and Savornin Lohmanlaan in The Hague.
A much older woman, in her 90s, walked
to the bus stop. She walked with a walker.
She was a small woman with a sparkle in
her eyes and a big bright smile. She had a
light complexion and dark grey medium
length hair. She soon started talking to me
because we were alone and bus 4 (= No. 24
since 2004) was late. She revealed she was
Jewish and a survivor of the Holocaust.
She was in a concentration camp during
World War II and was the only survivor
in her family. All her relatives had died in
a concentration camp. My heart goes out
to this wonderful human being, a stranger,
and her family. Honestly, I don’t even know
her name. I guess she’s not alive anymore,
but I will tell her story to remind people
how evil Hitler was. The Holocaust is not
a lie. It really happened. I know this. It’s
the only time in my life that a survivor
opened up to me about the Holocaust.
And once you’ve heard a story like this,
you will never forget it.

Why did it happen? The Nazis believed that
blond blue-eyed Caucasian people were
descended from the Aryan gods who used
to live on Atlantis, a lost island, according
to mythology. The Nazis deemed all other
darker ‘races’ inferior. Hitler sold such a
big lie to so many people and caused so
much confusion, heartbreak and death.
Learn from the past! We should cancel his
racist worldview. It’s a lie that blond blue-
eyed people descend from Atlantis. The
truth is there are multiple ethnicities, but
there’s only one human race. According
to science homo sapiens (= early modern
human) comes from Africa. That’s where
it all started 300.000 years ago, before they
started migrating. All people around the
world are Africans originally.

So I hereby declare I feel great compassion
for Jewish communities all over the world,
but I also feel great empathy for the Muslim
communities in the Middle East. It’s known
that after World War II the State of Israel was
founded by the Zionists in 1948. Back at high
school I used to think this was a great thing
for Jewish people because of the Holocaust,
but now that I’m older and hopefully wiser,
I have become aware the Zionists created
an apartheid state which is so racist towards
Arab Palestinians and black people in the
Southern Levant. As an African Surinamese
man I just have to be really honest about
this topic because I know the history of the
transatlantic African slave trade and the
history of colonialism. It’s very well known
that Western European nations colonized
North America, South America, Caribbean
islands, Australia and many countries in Asia,
the Middle East and Africa in the previous
centuries. Do you remember when Native
Americans lost all their land to Western
European settlers? Well, this is the same
situation. The hard truth is that the warlike
Zionists, who are mostly white people from
the continents of Europe & North America,
colonized the land of the Palestinians and
they look very different from the original
Jewish people in the land of Canaan. The
original Israelites looked similar to black
Africans such as Egyptians. They did not
look like people from Western Europe at
all. They were not blond like Dutch people.
There might have been a few exceptions of
Israelites who had a lighter complexion, but
generally they looked similar to Egyptians.
They even lived in Ancient Egypt for a long
time according to Exodus in Old Testament.
I think the original Israelites were actually
Egyptians, but they were discriminated and
oppressed by the other Egyptians because
they had converted to a monotheistic faith,
probably introduced by Pharaoh Akhenaten
who reigned around 1353 – 1336 BC and was
a very controversial figure in Egypt. At that
time, Canaan was part of the New Kingdom
of Egypt. So I think that a group of Egyptians
left Akhetaten (Amarna) and went to Canaan
where they created their own Jewish culture
and Hebrew language over the years. So I
think the Bible doesn’t tell the truth. It’s even
possible that Moses was an alias for Pharaoh
Akhenaten. Based on his statues, I think he
was a black African.

Canaan underwent many changes over the
centuries and it was colonized many times.
For example, Canaan used to be part of the
Akkadian Empire (c. 2334 – 2154 BC) and the
New Kingdom of Egypt (c. 1550 – 1069 BC),
the Kingdom of Israel (c. 1047 – 930 BC) and
the Neo-Assyrian Empire (911 – 609 BC) and
the Neo-Babylonian Empire (626 – 539 BC),
the Achaemenid Empire (550 – 330 BC), the
Macedonian Empire (335 – 323 BC) and the
Roman Empire (27 BC – AD 330) with Rome
as its capital, the Byzantine Empire or also
called Eastern Roman Empire (330 – 1453)
with Constantinople as its capital. And then
finally the Islamic world (624 – present). So
many different peoples have lived in Canaan
during those empires, such as the Amorites,
the Egyptians, the Phoenicians, the Hittites,
the Israelites, the Greeks, the Romans and
the Arabs. So this region must have been
a multicultural society since ancient times.
So why should only one nation be allowed
to own the land of Canaan today? Well, this
doesn’t make any sense. It’s just not fair!
For many centuries Jewish people lived in
Europe. Many Jews moved to the USA. The
majority of Jews from Europe and the USA
are white people whose ancestors come
from Europe. Their ancestors converted to
Judaism, so they’re not descended from the
ancient Israelites. Many Jews from Eastern
Europe moved to Western Europe where
they mixed with blonde Europeans. That’s
why you see many blonde Jews these days.
And now after many centuries they want
to ‘return’ to Canaan and oppress natives
(Palestinians) who have lived in this region
since the 7th century and probably even
earlier. Jewish people from Judaea may well
be the ancestors of the Palestinians. So the
Israeli oppression is absolutely wrong and
it must stop now! We must free Palestine.
For hundreds of years the indigenous Jewish
inhabitants and the Arab Muslims had lived
together peacefully, but then everything
changed when those British Zionists came
and colonized Palestine in the 20th century.
The Palestinians have lost so much land.
I hope the Israelis and Palestinians will find
a way to share the land with each other and
also with immigrants such as the Eritreans,
Sudanese and Ethiopians. Sadly, they are
treated like second class citizens in Israel.
According to some reporters and many
colored residents there’s white supremacy
in Israel which means that I would be a
second or third class citizen if I lived there.
So white Jewish British families, after living
in Europe for many centuries, could ‘return’
to Israel and earn all kinds of privileges in
the ‘Holy Land’, but a Jewish Ethiopian kid
is not welcome there??? Obviously, Zionists
would like to turn Israel into a country for
white people. This is ethnic cleansing, so
be vigilant! By the way, could you imagine
that one day milions of African Americans,
after living in the Americas and Caribbean
for 400 years, would decide to return to
Congo and Ghana and try to steal the land
from indigenous people there??? It’s just
unthinkable because it’s crazy and immoral
to do something like that. On top of that,
many African Americans don’t even look like
their West African ancestors anymore. They
would be seen as invaders by the natives.

I love that Israel is the only country in the
Middle East region where people from the
LGBTQI community are free to be who they
really are. I understand this need because
I am a gay man myself, but the freedom of
LGBTQI and the freedom of Jewish people
should not be used for the foundation of an
apartheid state that’s racist to Palestinians
and other people of color. This is not right!
So when I think back to my meeting with the
old Jewish woman in August 1997, I wonder
what she would think of the current war in
Gaza Strip now because I know there are
some other Holocaust survivors who have
been interviewed on tv and they don’t like
what’s happening in Gaza Strip. But I guess
she’s not alive anymore. Hopefully, she lives
in a more beautiful and peaceful world right
now where she has been united with her lost
relatives after such a long time and after so
many years of deep loneliness and yearning.
I also wonder what Yeshua (the Christ) thinks
of this current situation in Gaza. Well, even
though he himself might have been Jewish,
I guess he would still call the Palestinians his
brothers and sisters. He would say: ‘Let the
children come to me.’ I’m sure he meant all
the children, including Palestinian children,
black children and white children.

Stop antisemitism and Islamophobia! And
stop oppressing and killing the Palestinians!
They should have the right and freedom
to live wherever they want in the Southern
Levant, just like every other person in that
region. This has been their land for a really
long time, hundreds of years. According to
history the Arabs have lived in this region
since the 7th century AD and possibly even
earlier. Moreover, some Palestinian kids
may have Jewish ancestors. So free Gaza
and free Palestine! I hope that a two-state
solution will become a reality in the near
future. Sadly, the Palestinians have lived
under illegal occupation since 1948. I was
not even born yet. So on October the 7th
I celebrated my 45th birthday with family.
Well, since that day Gaza’s situation has
become even worse. Right now I feel so
very disappointed in humanity. Everyday I
see horrific images from the war in Gaza.
Of course the terrorist attack of Hamas on
October 7 was evil and wrong. I feel sad
that so many innocent Israeli people lost
their lives. Make sure that violence is never
the answer to solve our problems because
when you do use violence, then you’re not
any better than the aggressor/perpetrator.
Hamas should release all Israeli hostages
and Israel should release the many 100s of
Palestinian children, women and men that
Zionists have been kidnapping for decades.
And what the Israelis are doing in Gaza right
now is terrorism too! Western media such
as CNN show a very one-sided narrative.
They only seem to feel compassion for the
loss of Israeli lives. Dead Palestinians get
less attention or no attention at all. I read
that half of the Palestinian population is
under 18 years old. Well, all these innocent
children will be traumatized for the rest of
their lives. Even babies are being killed right
now. It’s insane! It’s a shame that Benjamin
Netanyahu compares the Palestinians to
the Amalek people from the Hebrew Bible.
The Old Testament is a collection of violent
warmongering stories that should not serve
as moral guidance for people in the 21st
century. We should be wiser now and be
able to show compassion for one another.

The dehumanization and demonization of
Palestinians by Netanyahu is so shocking.
He talks like Adolf Hitler. He is a psychopath!
I think it is a perfect example of the victim
becoming the perpetrator. When a victim
was sexually abused as a child, sometimes
that child when he/she is grown up will do
the same abusive things to other children.
It might be an attempt to regain the (sexual)
power that he/she once lost as a little child.
So the Jews were the victims in the Second
World War, but then after the founding of
the State of Israel, with the help of Zionists
from the UK and USA, they actually became
the perpetrator/oppressor in Palestine. It’s
so very sad that this big trauma from WWII
pushed some Jews in the wrong direction.
I think this is not real Judaism because true
Judaism is more compassionate.

I live in Holland, so I don’t know everything
that happens in Gaza and the West Bank.
For daily news about this region I depend
on news sources such as Al Jazeera English,
BBC News, Sky News, The Young Turks and
The Grayzone. I think it’s very touching to
see so many protests all over the world and
even in the USA. For the first time I see so
many people, thousands of people, standing
up for the rights and freedom of children
in Palestine. There are also so many Jewish
people who disapprove of the cruel actions
of Netanyahu and his fascist regime. Many
Jews oppose Zionism and support a free
Palestine. News channel ‘Democracy Now!’
has a great video about a Jewish American
protest taking place at the main terminal of
Grand Central Station in New York City. So
this demonstration was led by the Jewish
Voice for Peace. I believe this must be the
real Judaism and that gives me some hope
for the future of Palestinians. But it’s just so
heartbreaking to see that a large crowd of
Muslims wanted to attack Israeli citizens in
an airplane arriving at an airport in Russia.
This is antisemitism! We should condemn
this hunting for Jews and try to remember
that most Jews are innocent civilians just
like the Palestinians. It’s their evil leaders
who are creating endless brutal wars for
the sheep. Netanyahu should be cancelled!
He is a war criminal. The Palestinians have
lived in an open-air prison for years. They
actually live in a cage because they can’t
get out. It’s like a modern concentration
camp. They can’t even get water, food or
electricity. All communications have been
cut off, so they cannot use their phones
or the internet. It’s pretty clear Netanyahu
wants them to suffer silently without the
rest of the world knowing all the details.
This is such a major humanitarian crisis,
so this region needs a ceasefire now!

The United Nations General Assembly called
for a humanitarian truce in Israel-Gaza war.
120 countries voted in favour of a truce and
14 countries (such as the USA and Israel)
voted against it and 45 countries abstained,
including the Netherlands! Well, I feel so
ashamed that my country did not have the
balls to vote. Obviously, the government of
the Netherlands is afraid to lose their good
relationship with the USA if they let them
down. The Netherlands is like the lapdog
of the USA. Our political leaders preferred
an abstention. Well, this is very cowardly.
Just remember that many people in the
Netherlands oppose the war in Gaza and
want a ceasefire now! Suriname is a country
in South America and that’s where both my
parents come from. My mother and I are
African Surinamese immigrants in the
Netherlands, although I was born in the
Netherlands. But Suriname definitely had
the balls to vote in favor of a truce. Thank
you, Suriname! That’s great! I’m also happy
to see that countries such as Egypt and
Jordan prefer a truce. I would also like to
give a shout out to Belgium, because the
Belgian political leaders had the balls to
vote for a truce. Well done, Belgium!

The USA military empire in the Middle East
is the great catalyst of wars in that region.
Why are there USA army bases in countries
in the Middle East? Armies in Afghanistan,
Iraq, Syria, Qatar and UAE? It’s so confusing!
The USA always wants to lecture Russia, but
what they have done to indigenous people
in the Middle East is even worse. And don’t
you forget that one million Iraqi people died
in the USA war with Iraq after the American
president George W. Bush told the world
lies about the presence of weapons of mass
destruction in Iraq in 2003. The USA needs
to get out of the Middle East! Stop lecturing
people in the Middle East! The people there
are descended from the oldest civilizations
in the world. They really don’t need the USA
to tell them what’s right or wrong. By the
way, the USA is not a role model for other
countries. I love music from the USA and
there are many great people coming from
this country and I enjoyed going on vacation
to Chicago, Iowa, Orlando, Miami and New
York and I’ve met a lot of nice Americans too.
They welcomed me in their country. But I do
not approve of the politics of their leaders in
the Middle East. So in this article I decided
to give my unapologetic opinion about the
situation in Gaza and the role of the USA in
this war. The unconditional support to Israel
makes the USA complicit in the massacre
and genocide taking place in Gaza right now.
Over 8000 Palestinians have died since 10/7.
It’s not my intention to hurt the feelings of
Americans, but if they are hurt by my article,
then so be it. It’s much more important that
I speak from my heart and give my honest
opinion about the Israel-Gaza war since so
many lives of children are at stake now. We
have to speak up! So bring George W. Bush,
Tony Blair, Barack Obama & Hillary Clinton
(for the mess they created in Libya in 2011),
Joe Biden, Kamala Harris, Isaac Herzog and
Netanyahu to justice at the International
Criminal Court in The Hague for all the war
crimes they committed in the Middle East!

Last but not least, the current situation in
Gaza is a test for the whole human race on
this planet. The Palestinians are not donkeys
that you can push across the country. They
are human beings just like everyone else. To
some extent I can imagine what Palestinians
are going through because my West African
ancestors were treated like servile animals
by Dutch colonists in Suriname. So this is a
big wake up call. If you condone this war, you
might lose your humanity and start crawling
on the ground like a wild animal just like the
Babylonian Emperor Nebuchadnezzar II did
when he lost his mind for seven years. This
story comes from the Book of Daniel in the
Hebrew Bible. According to the last known
Uruk tablet from Nebuchadnezzar’s reign
he died on 7 October 562 BC.

Written by Ryan Maurice Roemer
September-October 2023

For more information click on Al Yazeera video link down below.
Israel intensifies attacks: Gaza residents ask why are Western leaders waiting

For more information click on Al Yazeera news link down below.
UNGA calls for humanitarian truce in Israel-Gaza war: How countries voted

For more information click on Sky News video link down below.
Israel-Hamas war: ‘We will fight and we will win’, says Benjamin Netanyahu

For more information click on TeleSUR video link down below.
Empire Files: Anti-Black Racism Reveals Israel’s White Supremacy

For more information click on VICE News video link down below.
Why Ethiopian Jews Are Building a Movement Against Racism in Israel

For more information click on Democracy Now! news link down below.
“Not in Our Name”: 400 Arrested at Jewish-Led Sit-in at NYC’s Grand Central Demanding Gaza Ceasefire

if you’re interested in more articles that I wrote, then take a look at this:
The Dutch King’s apology for slavery in Suriname and Caribbean during the rise of anti-woke sentiments in the Netherlands

Send yourself to me (lyrics)

Hey hey, send yourself to me.
Hey hey, send yourself to me.

Walk away! Come back to me!
The turning point.
Your mind changed.
Walk away! Come back to me!
The turning point.
Your mind changed.

Hey hey, send yourself to me.
Hey hey, send yourself to me.

Am I a song playing in your head?
You can’t forget it.
Your rhythm changed.
Am I a song playing in your head?
You can’t forget it.
Your rhythm changed.

Hey hey, send yourself to me.
Hey hey, send yourself to me.

Send yourself! Send yourself!
Send yourself to me.
Hey hey, send yourself! Send yourself!
Send yourself to me.
Hey hey, send yourself! Send yourself!
Send yourself!

I wrote this song in September 1992 when I was 13 years old. Now I’m 44.
I still enjoy singing it after 31 years and that 13 year old boy still lives inside of me.
A lot of things have changed in the world since 1992, but some things never change.
My love for music will never change.
I will sing forever as long as I have a voice.
Even if I lose it one day, my spirit will always sing.
Song recorded: 4 August 2023.

‘Accompanied by the thunder’ (song) and my story: struck by lightning in 2008

I like the elements of nature.
Listen to the sounds of streaming water.
Beauty is everywhere.
The Earth is my home.

In the sky I hear thunder.
In the sky I see the lightning.
I know how it feels to be accompanied by the thunder.

I like to walk around in nature,
watching the trees giving me shelter.
Flowers grow everywhere.
This world is my home.

In your heart I hear thunder.
In your soul I see the lightning.
I know how it feels to be accompanied by the thunder.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer.
Audio recording on 10 August 2023.

I started writing this song in January/February 1998 when I was 19 years old. I guess I felt the need to romanticize the forces of nature. I wondered how it would feel to be close to forces such as lightning which I considered a manifestation of divinity and the incredible creative power of the Universal Spirit which some people call ‘God’. Well, you’d better be careful what you wish for, because exactly 10 years later on Sunday the 20th of July 2008 I was struck by lightning during my vacation in Suriname. I was 29 when this happened, the most dramatic and wonderful event of my life. Me, my mother, stepfather and half sister went on vacation to Suriname to visit our family there. I had not been to Suriname for almost a decade. The last time was in July 1999. So it felt good to be back in Suriname with my family and on the 20th of July 2008 we decided to visit Colakreek, a blackwater creek in Para (= district of Suriname), which is a very popular recreation park for people in Suriname. My maternal grandmother, uncle, his wife (= my godmother) and two cousins came with us to visit Colakreek. It was a warm sunny day with a clear blue sky. We drove from Paramaribo (= the capital of Suriname) to Colakreek in Para District. When we arrived at Colakreek, we were welcomed by a Native American family who are friends with my uncle and his wife. This family owned a nice bungalow there with two beautiful gazebos in the garden. Me and some relatives decided to sit down under a gazebo right next to the small river. On the land on the other side of the water I saw several groups of people sitting under gazebos. There was a large crowd in the park that day. I guess over 150 people spent the afternoon there and many of them played in the water. Everybody seemed to feel happy and enjoy nature there. It was a hot day, because the sun was shining so brightly, but the tropical trees and gazebos provided some cover. I didn’t want to swim in the water because of the mosquitoes, so I stayed under the gazebo with my mother and grandmother.

After some hours the weather changed suddenly. First it started to drizzle, but then suddenly it started to rain very hard. It was a typical tropical downpour. The hard rain came so unexpected that many people had to quickly seek shelter. I stood under the gazebo near the water, watching some people still in the water. Then suddenly out of nowhere lightning struck the water just a few feet away from me. So I could see the lightning bolt right in front of me and that was an incredible view! It’s the loudest and most intimidating sound that I have ever heard. Of course, everyone knows the sound of lightning, but to hear and see it from so close is very different. I’ll never forget that view and that sound. First I heard the electrical sound from lightning and then I heard the explosive sound from the thunder. I guess it must be similar to a bomb explosion. Everything happened so fast. I let out a cry of terror (that actually sounded kind of funny), because suddenly my arms went up from the electricity. My arms and legs became completely stiff and this lasted for a few seconds. It took a while before I could move my arms and legs normally again. I realized that I had been hit by a spark from that lightning bolt and that I must have had a serious electric shock. I was surprised that the electric shock didn’t hurt at all. I never felt any physical pain. I only felt a soft tingling in the skin around my right chest and shoulder. I told my mother that I had been struck, but she could not believe me. She remained in denial for a long time, so I guess the shock and the idea that her son had been struck by lightning was too much for her at that moment. Then I unbuttoned my shirt so I could get a better look at my right shoulder. I didn’t have any injuries. My skin looked normal, but after a few minutes the red veins under the skin started to become more and more visible. Eventually the veins started to look like a landscape map that stretched from the right chest and shoulder to the top of my back. Now my mother, grandmother, godmother, sister and niece could clearly see that I had been struck by lightning. Everybody was in a state of shock. My mother later admitted that she had seen a flash of lightning right next to me, but at first she thought it had missed me. My godmother started to cry and my grandmother asked us to pray together which I normally never or rarely do, but this time I agreed, because my mom and godmother looked so scared. So we said the Lord’s Prayer: ‘Our Father in Heaven’. My grandmother was a Christian and believed this was a sign from God. We all lay down on the floor, because my family was afraid that lightning would strike one of us again. Only my grandmother stayed in her chair. We could not leave our gazebo, because it kept storming.

My uncle, nephew and uncle’s friends were forced to stay under the other gazebo in the garden at a distance of about 30 meters from us. They wanted to come to our gazebo, but they could not leave because of the dangerous storm. There was thunder and lightning everywhere. My stepdad, who was still standing in an unprotected spot in the garden, had to run quickly to the car parked next to the house so that he could take shelter inside. That’s what he later told us after all the drama was over. He had to hide in the car for a long time, because the storm continued to rage for quite a long time. But after a while, the storm slowly began to subside. When I looked at the water again, I noticed that some unknown people were still in it. Two of them had passed out in the water, for they were closest to the lightning strike on the water. I assume they must have had an electric shock. Their families or friends came to rescue them and pulled them out of the river and carried them to a gazebo on the opposite river side. When the storm finally passed, my stepfather, uncle and nephew were able to come to our gazebo. They were shocked when they saw what had happened to me. My uncle’s friends told us they had never experienced anything like this at Colakreek before. The electricity was also out everywhere in the park. No one dared to go into the water anymore. After a while an ambulance arrived at one of the gazebos on the other side of the river. The ambulance took one of the fainted victims to the hospital. I felt so sad for this young man and hoped he would recover soon. Luckily I had no serious injuries, so me and my family decided to drive back to Paramaribo. My mother told me she believed that Mother Nature wanted to touch me. Those words stayed with me. Maybe she was right. I guess this was her attempt to turn something negative into something positive. While I was in the car I looked out of the window and felt very good like I was reborn. Then I noticed that the red veins under the skin around my right chest and shoulder were already starting to fade. When we finally got back to the city after a long drive, the visible veins on my chest, shoulder and back had completely disappeared. This little miracle happened within two to three hours. I felt so relieved! In Paramaribo we drove past a doctor and she took a look at my skin and asked me a few checking questions and then said I’m okay. She told me I was lucky and that my injury cleared up so quickly because it is in the mildest category. So that was the end of my adventure on that special day.

Exactly one week later, a sunny afternoon on Sunday the 27th of July 2008, I happened to meet my biological father in a supermarket parking lot in Paramaribo. I had not seen him for 11 years. The last time I saw him was in October 1997 when I had just turned 19 years old. So my father and I were right next to the supermarket and talked for a few minutes while my stepdad, uncle and niece were waiting in the car. My dad hugged me and said I’m always welcome. That was the last time I had seen him alive. Exactly 10 years later, on Saturday the 6th of January 2018, my father passed away unexpectedly due to diabetes. Nurses at the hospital were not able to save his life, because they didn’t have enough insulin for him. Healthcare is very bad in Suriname. I didn’t attend my father’s funeral in Paramaribo because I did not have a close relationship with him.

I felt so lucky and blessed after surviving the lightning strike. I knew the Christ had protected me that day (20 July), because I didn’t feel any pain when I was struck by lightning. Yeshua started appearing in my dreams when I was about 6 years old (in late 1984) and he kept appearing in dreams when I was a teenager and an adult. Just a few days before flying to Suriname in July 2008 I looked at a special photo that I had found on the internet. It was a photo of ‘Cristo Redentor’ (= Christ the Redeemer), a statue of Christ in Rio de Janeiro in Brazil. Of course, I know that the historical Yeshua actually looked completely different from the representation of the statue, but I still found the picture of the statue interesting, because it shows how the statue’s head was struck by lightning on Sunday the 10th of February 2008. The statue looks so indestructible at that moment. I saved that photo on a USB stick before flying to Suriname. So when the same thing happened to my shoulder only two weeks after looking at that photo, I knew this was no coincidence. Being struck by lightning was the most dramatic, the most terrifying, the most beautiful and the most revealing event of my life. It showed me that Christ is real and much more than just a man who appeared in my dreams. Thank you for touching me, Mother Nature. I feel stronger now! Your lightning is part of my DNA now. And thank you for keeping me safe, Yeshua. On so many occasions you showed me that, even though I’m an androgynous gay man who faces a lot of discrimination in this mortal world, I will never walk alone in the universe. You have always been by my side and accepted me as I am, because you love all children of God.

Ryan Maurice Roemer
28 August 2023

The Dutch King’s apology for slavery in Suriname and Caribbean during the rise of anti-woke sentiments in the Netherlands

Usually I publish the lyrics of my a cappella songs on this blog, but today I’m going to do something different. Since I have a particular interest in history, I’d like to draw your attention to an important and historical event in the Netherlands (Europe). Recently, the Dutch King apologized for the Netherlands’ role in slavery in Suriname (South America) and some Caribbean islands. Since I’m an African Surinamese man myself, I’d like to respond to this and elaborate on the topic of racism. Where do we go from here as a black and colored community, but also as a multicultural society, now that anti-woke sentiments are rising in our country? Anti-woke conservatives always hate on diversity, feminism and LGBTQI in mainstream media and social media. This movement has become extremely popular. It’s very worrisome. I would also like to discuss the role of so called ‘Christians’ who have been relentless in perpetuating and maintaining the ‘white savior’ complex. What a lot of people don’t know is that African slaves (prisoners!) were not allowed to practice their own religions in Suriname. They were Christianized. All other religions became pagan and nudity became a sin too. So slaves lost much of their African cultures. I will also discuss my own relationship with Christianity, because Christ started appearing in my dreams when I was a child. By the way, English is not my native language, so forgive me if I make language mistakes.

WARNING: In this article I will talk about some sensitive topics in our society. You’re welcome on my blog, but if you are easily offended, then maybe you’d better leave. I’m going to speak my truth, unapologetically.

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1: National Slavery Monument, Oostpark Amsterdam, the Netherlands.
Photo taken by R.M. Roemer during Keti Koti Festival on 1 July 2017.

Every year we celebrate Keti Koti in Suriname and the Netherlands on the 1st of July. Keti Koti means that the chains are broken, because on this day in 1863 the Dutch government abolished slavery in Suriname. So this year (2023) marks the 160th anniversary of the abolition of slavery, but actually it’s only 150 years ago, because after the abolition in 1863 African slaves were forced to continue working on plantations until 1873. Last year on the 19th of December 2022 Mark Rutte, the Dutch Prime Minister, apologized for the Dutch government’s active role in slavery and crimes committed against Africans. Now 7 months later on July 1, on the occasion of 150 years of the abolition of slavery, the Dutch King Willem-Alexander also apologizes for the role his family played in slavery in their (former) colonies: Suriname in South America and some islands in the Caribbean such as Curacao, Aruba, Sint Maarten, Bonaire, Saba and Sint Eustatius. This is a historical moment and a very emotional moment for a lot of people, especially for the descendants of the African slaves, including myself. Finally, there’s an official recognition of this crime against humanity and all the suffering that slaves and their descendants endured for centuries.

2: Monument of 11.0000 names, Oosterpark Amsterdam, the Netherlands.
Photo taken by Ryan Maurice Roemer during Keti Koti Festival on 1 July 2017.


This monument depicts the surnames of freed African slaves in Suriname. After slavery was abolished in 1863, they were given names by their former slave owners. My paternal grandfather’s surname ‘Kort’ can be found in the list of surnames. I don’t have any other information about him, because he died when my father was two years old and my father’s parents were not together anymore.

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3: Monument of 11.000 names, Oostpark Amsterdam, the Netherlands.
Photo taken by Ryan Maurice Roemer during Keti Koti Festival on 1 July 2017.


My maternal grandmother’s surname ‘Roemer’ is in the list of surnames. My grandma’s grandparents used to be slaves working on a plantation in Para. Para is a district in Suriname. My grandma’s paternal grandmother’s name was ‘Roemer’ and her paternal grandfather’s name was ‘Bova’. Her grandpa was a ransomed slave before the abolition of slavery. Bova and Roemer were not allowed to get married during slavery.


My parents come from Suriname. Both my mother and father are African Surinamese, although both of them are also mixed (interracial), but most black people in Suriname are mixed. The point is that we identify as black people. My father passed away in 2018, but my mother is alive and doing well. I know this historical moment means a lot to people of my parents’ generation. My mother still has clear memories of the 100th anniversary of the abolition of slavery in Suriname on 1 July 1963. She was almost 10 years old at that time. My maternal grandmother died in 2019, she was 95 years old (born 1924), and when she was a little girl in Suriname, a lot of older black people who used to be slaves in the 19th century were still alive. My grandma’s father (Roemer) was black and her mother was mixed. Of course it was the same situation for my maternal grandfather (Refos, born 1914) when he was a little boy, even though his ethnical background was different, because his mother (Refos) was a mixed woman from Suriname and his father came from China. Even when my mother (born 1953) and father (born 1943) were small children in Suriname, a few freed slaves were still alive, but of course they were very old. So for people of my parents’ and grandparents’ generations, slavery is not that long ago.

My mother migrated to the Netherlands in the 1970s, because she was a student. Actually, a lot of Surinamese people moved to the Netherlands in the 1970s. My father never migrated, but he often came on vacation in the Netherlands. My parents’ relationship already started in Suriname in the 1960s, but I was born in 1978 and raised by my mother in the Netherlands, so I also went to school in this country. Honestly, during history lessons Dutch teachers (who were white) rarely talked about the Dutch government’s role in slavery. Most history lessons were about the first and second world wars. I understand that there was a lot of suffering for many European people during these wars, but when I was a teenager at high schooI I always thought it was strange that the history of my parental country (Suriname) was almost non-existent in Dutch history books. Teachers also never mentioned the role that Suriname played in WWII. My maternal grandmother worked as a soldier when 2000 American soldiers came to Suriname in 1941 to help the Dutch protect the borders of Suriname, especially the bauxite industry, against the German Nazis. My grandmother worked as a truck driver for the American soldiers. The absence of Suriname in Dutch history books made a lot of black people feel invisible in the Netherlands. I can relate to that, because as a black gay man I have often felt invisible in Holland. I often feel that my life, my happiness doesn’t really count in this country. I’m just a ‘nigger’, just a ‘fag’.

In 2013 I made a video about the racist character Zwarte Piet, also called Black Pete or Blackface, who is the servant of Sinterklaas (similar to Santa Claus). I criticized this racist Dutch tradition through satire and published my video on social media. I received a lot of hateful comments from Dutch people wishing me dead. For many years some Dutch people with a lot of power have tried to suppress my video on YouTube, because they don’t want it to get views, but somehow the video still managed to get a lot of views. Since October 2017 I have been shadowbanned on YouTube. They manipulated the algorithm in such a way that my video was not able to get any views anymore. It went from thousands of views per day to zero views. So this is the state of the Dutch society today. This is what might happen. If a black person stands up and wants to give his or her opinion about an important topic, there’s still a big chance that white supremacists will try to silence us. And it seems that the number of white supremacists is increasing, probably stimulated by the popularity of some right-wing extremist political parties. But this is not only happening in the Netherlands. Something is changing in many Western countries. In the past certain groups of people were called ‘neo fascists’ or ‘right-wing extremists’, but today many people refer to themselves as ‘anti-woke conservatives’. It sounds interesting, but what does it really mean? I’ve watched a lot of interviews with anti-woke politicians, reporters and influencers and I’ve come to a negative conclusion. Anti-woke conservatives are (closeted) racists, misogynists and homophobes. They want people like me to fail in society and in fact they would like to return to the 18th century when discrimination ruled the world. Anti-woke conservatives are often narcissists and emotionally disabled and unable to feel empathy for minorities. For some reason they believe that the white ‘race’ is in danger, but it’s really not (if you ask me) or maybe they just want to pretend that the white race is in danger and put fear in the hearts of white children. Fear mongering! They often create the most bizar conspiracy theories and want to make people, especially young people, believe that the ‘wokists’ (a new discriminatory label for people like me) want to oppress straight white men and women. Today you can read the word ‘woke’ all over social media. It’s a new hype! A similar thing happened in Germany in the 1930s when the Nazis started blaming innocent and hard-working Jews for everything that went wrong in society. They became the scapegoats.

But I do understand the frustrations of angry white people in the Netherlands and the rest of Western Europe. They are not happy with the large numbers of migrants coming from Africa and Asia. White people have the feeling that they are losing their countries. Dutch white people are afraid that we will steal their best jobs and they’re also angry that a large proportion of crime, especially in the big cities, is caused by black men (from Suriname / Caribbean) and Arab men (e.g. Moroccans). It’s not my intention to justify criminal behaviour of those young black and colored men, because crime is always wrong, but a lot of them can’t find jobs and feel lost in the Netherlands. Many ‘foreigners’ face discrimination in the labor market. Not only people of color but also white people from Eastern Europe (e.g. Polish people) can’t find jobs. It shouldn’t be a surprise that the Dutch respond to migrants in this way, because it’s human nature to feel fear of the unknown, the other, especially the ‘dark’ other, but the truth is population movements have taken place all over the world for thousands if not millions of years. Animals do the same thing, e.g. elephants, birds and fish travel thousands of miles by land and sea, always looking for food, a better place to stay. Nobody leaves their home without a reason. Many people are war refugees, so they were forced to leave their countries, but some other people are just looking for adventures and want more land. That’s what Western Europeans did in the Americas and Australia. They stole all the land from the indigenous pre-Columbian peoples and Aboriginal peoples. The Arab Muslims (from the Arabian Peninsula) did the same thing when they conquered Egypt, Morocco and the rest of North Africa, as well as large parts of West Asia. We live in a world that continues to change due to population movements. Probably, you won’t like that, but there’s not a lot you can do about it, so you just have to accept that people will always keep moving around the world. It’s the nature of the beast. Nothing will stay the same forever. Our society will never be the way it was 100 years ago, because everything changes. People are afraid of change and many of them are unable to adapt to new times and new situations.

So who are the wokists according to the anti-woke conservatives? Well, they want you to believe that the so called ‘globalists’ want to create a new world order and want to educate people about diversity, gender and sexuality. In other words, empowerment for minorities such as black people and other people of color in the Western world and also more visibility for members from the LGBTQI community and more opportunities and equal pay for women. People who used to be discriminated a lot in the past and are still facing a lot of discrimination today. It makes you wonder: Is it really such a bad thing to empower these marginalized groups of people and make them more visible? Do you really have to ban books educating children about the existence of LGBTQI people on this planet? Most children know a gay or bisexual aunt, uncle or cousin in their families and yet these anti-woke conservatives don’t want any gay characters in children books and movies, because they want to ‘protect’ children. Oh, really??? For example, when I was a small child, I knew that my favorite aunt was a proud lesbian or bisexual black woman, because she openly lived with her black girlfriend in the 1980s and 1990s. But there are so many other LGBTQI people and black/colored people who just want some respect, freedom and visibility. We exist! Don’t you want them to achieve a little more autonomy and financial independence? Are we allowed to be happy and fully enjoy our humanity? We just want to be seen as human beings and we want more equal opportunities. It’s not our goal to discriminate or oppress white people and straight people. Because the anti-woke conservatives pretend that white people and heterosexual people are now the new victims. God gave this world, this planet, to all of us. We all have the right to enjoy the fruits of life. Listen, you anti-woke conservatives! Nobody wants to hurt you! Stop being such a cry baby! And stop fear mongering! You straight white men and women still get the best and highest paid jobs in this stupid hierarchical world.

Even more bizar is the fact there are many black people and other people of color who are interested in the ideas of the anti-woke conservatives. I guess it won’t surprise you, but there’s a lot of racism within the black and colored communities. There are plenty of black and colored people who don’t like interacting with each other, simply because they have an aversion to other black and colored people. In other words, they don’t like their own ethnicity. They are not proud of their African roots and natural looks and try everything they can to change that, so called ‘acting white’. That’s one of the reasons why the emancipation of black and colored people is going so very slow, because a lot of them don’t support each other. The darker your skin is the more rejection you will experience in the black and colored communities. Dark-skinned black women in particular have to deal with racism the most in their own communities. Black men reject dark women all the time. They always look for light-skinned women as partners for marriage. It’s a very painful topic for many women and we don’t really talk about it in our communities, but it’s there and we all can see it, because it’s so obvious. In recent years I’ve seen the word ‘colorism’ a lot, but I don’t like this word, because I think it’s an understatement and it downplays or hides the existence of racism in black and colored communities. These black men are not colorists. They are racists! Just call it what it is. Many of them don’t help dark-skinned black women raise their children and they don’t help them move to more expensive neighbourhoods. They only help light-skinned women and they prefer light-skinned children too. Even my own father, every time he came to the Netherlands for a holiday, he spent more time with his light-skinned cousins than with me. By the way, they had good hair (straight and wavy). I remember…. when I was a toddler I started crying when my father played games with my much older cousins in the living room of his sister’s home, because he didn’t look at me and didn’t seem to be interested in playing games with a toddler. Eventually, my mother broke off their engagement in 1983. Now that I’m older I do understand that my father was probably conditioned to prefer light-skinned people, because all his half brothers and half sisters were white. He was the only biracial child of his Portuguese Surinamese mother (De Freitas, born 1906), the only child with a black father. After some time my mother married a Dutch white man (Elting, born 1950) in June 1985. During my childhood I didn’t have a good relationship with him, partly because it was difficult for me to accept a white man as my stepfather, but he has always been there for me when my black father wasn’t. My stepfather was there for me at important moments such as learning how to ride a bicycle, learning to swim, helping me overcome my fear of deep water, learning how to skate on ice and him talking to the school principal when I was bullied at high school. He is still a part of my life today.

Another reason that a lot of black and colored people have joined the anti-woke movement is because there’s a lot of homophobia in families of African, Asian and Middle Eastern descent. The Bible, the Quran and the Torah in particular have fueled a fear of LGBTQI in many people. So I have to confess that as a black gay man I almost never received emotional support from other black and colored people. Also black and colored gay men have not been supportive to me. There’s no unity or harmony in the black and colored communities in Holland according to my opinion. Probably because there are so many different ethnicities and cultures within these communities. But the African Surinamese and African Antillean communities in particular have been torn apart. They don’t really work together like the Moroccans and Turks do, because these two population groups often create their own companies in the Netherlands. But black people (including myself) often continue to work for a boss, because we are afraid to start new business. I don’t have a bad job and I can get by just fine, but I work for the Dutch government and I feel like I’m just a little pawn in a huge bureaucratic machine and I see that many other black people are in the same position. Why can’t we come together and create a new business? Black people are often so insecure, confused and messed up mentally and emotionally, which hinders our creativity and productivity, partly because of the slavery and colonial past, but also because of our discriminatory religions suppressing the power of our souls and our obsessive search for white beauty and a ‘white savior’. But is Christ really white? Or is that a lie?

Despite some discriminatory texts against gay men in the Bible, I still believe in Christ, because he started appearing in my dreams, as far as I can remember, when I was a 6 year old child in 1984 or 1985. In the first dream I can remember, Christ showed the stigmata in his hands to me. At that young age I did not know the resurrection story, because my Catholic parents never read the Bible to me and we never visited churches, so all I knew as a 6 year old boy was that Christ died on the cross, because I had seen that image on my rosary. So even though I did not know the resurrection story, the resurrected Christ still appeared in my dream. That’s very special to me. I think he wanted to come close to me, because he wanted to prove that he’s real and probably because he was concerned about my well-being. I know it was really him, because there’s simply no one like him. His presence is so divine. I’ve never seen such a humble man who is so majestic at the same time. I have seen Christ in many more dreams, but honestly, in a lot of dreams I didn’t recognize him, because he looked so different. Based on those dreams, I think this must be his true appearance. So I’m pretty sure what the real historical ‘Yeshua’ or ‘Yehoshua’ (maybe his original Hebrew name?) looked like and I can tell that he looks different from the bearded white man with long dark or blond hair that you see in biblical illustrations, paintings, documentaries and movies. Surprisingly, in most of my dreams he had short dark (curly) hair, a (light) brown skin color and often no beard or only a stubble beard. It wasn’t until I grew up that I finally realized that the colored man with short dark curly hair was also Christ! I guess that’s what the real historical Yeshua used to look like. Actually, that’s what some dreams revealed to me in the early 2000s. It made me realize that internalized racism was also present in me. Because of my brainwashing, I couldn’t recognize the short-haired and brown-skinned Yeshua as Christ in my own dreams for so many years!!! Nevertheless he was always very kind, respectful and supportive to me. That’s how I know that he loves LGBTQI people. When churches tell you that Christ disapproves of gay people, you should know that’s a lie made up by hateful priests! For centuries demonic entities have tried to change and suppress the true identity and the true loving message of Christ. The truth is he loves outcasts and will always support them.

Christ was of Middle Eastern descent…. or maybe not? Because the Middle East is a name coined by Western European colonists in the late 19th century. So, which ethnicities lived in the Southern Levant (Judaea) over 2000 years ago when Christ walked there? I assume that North Africa was originally inhabited primarily by black people (in the 2nd millenium BC and earlier) and the Arabian Peninsula was mainly inhabited by non-Muslim Arab people, so I guess the Southern Levant was a meeting place where black Africans and brown Arabs met. Most inhabitants spoke Semitic languages (e.g. Aramaic) and possibly also Classical Greek and/or Latin (= the languages of the southern European colonists). Let me remind you that ancient Egypt (originally called ‘Kemet’) and Canaan, which were inhabited and ruled by black Africans for a long time, changed a lot after it was conquered by the Assyrians (from Mesopotamia), the Macedonians (from Greece), the Romans and then by the Islamic Arabs. I think all four ethnicities looked quite similar with (light) brown skin and black hair (curly, wavy or straight), although Assyrians and Arabs were probably a bit darker than Macedonians and Romans. The Southern Levant (Canaan) was originally part of ancient black Egypt, for example during the New Kingdom of Egypt (1570 – 1069 BC), before being conquered by Assyrians, Europeans and Islamic Arabs. So I conclude, around 2000 years ago, the people of the Southern Levant (Judaea) must have been a mixed (multi-ethnic) population group, with brown, dark brown or light brown skin and mostly black hair, which could be kinky, curly, wavy or straight. I assume that Yeshua was not part of Egyptian culture, although according to the Gospel of Matthew he may have lived in Egypt for a while, but based on my dreams I think he did bear a strong resemblance to the ancient Egyptians. I’ve been to Egypt (Luxor) in 2019 and I think Yeshua could definitely blend in with the current local mixed population there (Egyptian, Nubian and Arab). I also believe that the ancient Israelites in Canaan were descended from the ancient Egyptians. They had brown skin and black hair (kinky or curly), like most North Africans at that time. I’m inclined to think that they are the ancestors of Yeshua. So I strongly believe if Yeshua walked on the Earth today, a lot of people would not pay attention to him, simply because he doesn’t look like a white man from Europe. Millions of so called ‘Christians’ would reject him simply because of his skin color and kinky or curly hair texture. Many black and colored people would also reject him, because they don’t like that hair type. All of them are racists, but that’s just my personal opinion. Finally, I would like to point out that in the Ethiopian Church, which is one of the oldest Christian institutions in the world, Yeshua has always been seen as a black African.

The King of the Netherlands apologized for Holland’s slavery past. What will this mean for the future of black and colored people in the Netherlands? Of course an apology is just a ceremonial formality. I do appreciate it, because it has a lot of meaning, but it will not change our lives. So what’s next? First of all, it’s important to know that excessive force against black and colored people still happens today, especially police violence which is often the result of racial profiling, and many of them are really innocent. That’s why the Black Lives Matter movement is so important today, because it tries to raise awareness in the hope that something will change. Even though this movement comes from the United States of America, it also matters for black/colored people living in Western European countries. Don’t listen to anti-woke conservatives trying to demonize the Black Lives Matter movement and claiming this movement was created by the so called ‘globalists’. That’s not true! Secondly, I think the best thing black and colored people can do is look within themselves. Deal with the racism in your own heart, because during slavery times a lot of slaves copied the racist ways of thinking from their white masters. In 1873 there came an end to physical slavery for black people in Suriname, but there’s still a lot of mental slavery among black people today. Will black and colored people be able to set themselves free from mental slavery??? Because in their minds they still think and act like slaves, but that’s just my personal opinion again. They often suffer from a low self-esteem. So I’d like to say to them: Look at yourself in the mirror! You are beautiful and smart. As long as your minds are not really free, you are still slaves, sadly. And my message to all black, white, colored and mixed people: Set your mind free! Learn to think with your heart. Everything you see in this world is only temporary. Physical beauty is only temporary. Material success is only temporary. Fame and fortune are temporary and followers/subscribers are temporary too. We don’t need 10.000 friends or subscribers. Nothing lasts on this mortal planet. Thank God! We should be grateful that death exists, because this is a very nasty world to live in. So my message to people is: Love your soul and take care of it! It’s like giving water to a flower. Prepare for the afterlife (if you believe there’s something more)! Free yourself from all the lies that your families, friends and local churches or mosques told you and all the burdens that they placed on your back and shoulders. I know your cross is heavy.

The moral of my story is that nobody wishes to be a beast of burden. Over the centuries this has happened to so many people who were captured, dehumanized and forced to live and work as slaves. This already started thousands of years ago. Even in the postmodern era, there’s still a lot of modern slavery such as trafficking in women and children. But trauma also happens to intelligent animals today, such as gorillas, elephants, horses, donkeys and giraffes. They have feelings too! There’s so much animal abuse. Animals that are forced to live in cages in a zoo or forced to perform in top sports and circuses or used for heavy physical work. A lot of those magnificent animals don’t even know what freedom feels like, because they were born in captivity. Luckily, I know what freedom feels like and I know it’s a human right, but it’s also a privilege, because not everybody is allowed to be free. That’s why we should never take freedom for granted. It’s something we must protect at all costs! Stay vigilant, because there are many anti-woke conservatives who are old-fashioned racists and some of them anonymously post very racist comments on social media, expressing their believe that the white race is far superior and that slavery should never have been abolished. So even today there are some white folks who think that way. That’s scary. How is this possible? I guess there are a lot of angry white people on social media today, because they are losing their white privilege in a world that’s changing. So is there a chance that history (slavery) will be repeated? Well, only time will tell. And how could we prevent that history will be repeated? Read the warnings on the wall and raise awareness in people, especially young people, because they are the future. Let them read books that tell the truth. But most of all, teach children to show compassion for people who are weaker. My African ancestors were not free for a long time, because they were not seen as fully human. So what does it take to be seen as human? And why are only humans allowed to be free and animals not? Why are their feelings less important to some people? Why are creatures with a lower IQ not allowed to be free? They still have feelings and need love. Just because you’re more intelligent doesn’t mean you have the right to enslave less intelligent beings. People with the highest IQ could use their intelligence for so many good causes and yet they often choose to use it for bad things such as selfishness, greed and lust for power, and sowing division and war. Well, that’s just monstrous, barbaric and cowardly. Those sadists must have a very low EQ. What could you do when you meet that type of person? Stand up to him or her! Do not ever accept toxic behaviour! Protect the weak, the homeless, the disabled, the ones who are not able to speak up for themselves. Back in 2004 I visited a zoo in Berlin (Germany) and saw some gorillas in a cage behind glass. A gorilla and I looked at each other. Somehow I got the feeling that I was looking at a human being. It was her eyes, her body language, the way the mother gorilla held her baby in her arms, and I just felt so sad and ashamed that she had to live like this. I’m able to express my feelings with words, but she can’t. So I wonder: How did she feel?

Ryan Maurice Roemer, 9 July 2023
Art History graduate, Leiden University

In loving memory of my maternal grandmother (Heligonda Roemer) who died on the 9th of July 2019. She was 95 years old and a devoted Christian woman. I think the King’s apology would have meant a lot to her.

4: Me and my grandma, around October 1980.

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For more information about the Dutch King’s apology, just click on the links below:
King apologizes for Netherlands’ role in slavery (Reuters)
Dutch King apologizes for the Netherlands’ role in slavery (DW News)
Dutch King Willem-Alexander apologises for country’s role in slavery (BBC News)