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‘He lifts me beyond this world’ (song) and a message about Christ

He takes me beyond this door,
beyond this neighbourhood,
beyond this city where I lived all my life.
He takes me beyond this country,
beyond this continent,
beyond this sea where I ran to all my life.
I feel safe in the palm of his hand.
His love is like an elevator lifting me up.
He lifts me up!

I wrote this song on 25 September 2012.
Filmed on 16 February 2013. I was 34 years old in the video.

With this song I would like to remember Ascension Day. I found this old video from 2013 in my digital archive. I wasn’t happy with my performance at the time, but now 10 years later I’ve grown to feel more positive about it. It wasn’t so bad after all. The song is based on dreams. Christ started appearing in my dreams when I was a child growing up in the 1980s and 1990s. He’s the kindest and most loyal man I have ever met. This might surprise a lot of people, because I’m a gay man. As a child I was bullied because of my girlie voice and manners. As an adult I still get a different treatment by a lot of people. The Bible calls feminine men like me an abomination. People think it’s alright to mock gay men, especially effeminate men and transgender women, because the Bible calls them demonic. It saddens me that Christ is misunderstood by so many people all over the world. They keep using his name to justify their discriminating and hateful actions towards people who are different, people who are outcasts. Christ has always been kind to me in dreams and never disrespectful and he never gave me the feeling there was something wrong with me. He has always accepted me for who I am and never tried to change me. He knows that homosexuality, lesbianism, bisexuality and hermaphrodites have always existed. Same-sex relationships not only occur in humans but also in animals. It has always existed and will continue to exist whether you like it or not, because it’s part of nature. Anyone with some common sense knows that. You don’t have to be an academic to understand this. The reason that a lot of people deny the truth is because they are brainwashed by a sick dogma that has torn apart people for centuries. Anyone who discriminates LGBTQ people in the name of Christ is not a real Christian. First of all, because Christ is not a hater and has always chosen love. He would never bully or mock another human being, for he would always show compassion to outcasts. The hatred lives in you, not in him. The Christ that people see in images in the mainstream media is not the real Christ. Nothing but lies. His name is not Jesus, because Christ never had an English name. He also never had long hair on his shoulders and he was not blond. He was a Jewish middle eastern man with dark hair and he loved outcasts. Deal with it!

He lifted me up in dreams. He made me fly. With this song I lift him up on Ascension Day. After all the abuse that you’ve endured, fly away, Christ!

Ryan Maurice Roemer, 18 May 2023

The end is near (lyrics)

I know the end is near.
In a time of war and fear.
The end is near.
It’s all very clear.
We’re not safe anymore, my dear.
We’re doomed to live in fear.
There seems no end to all my tears.
I know the end is near.
It’s all very clear.
In a time of fear.
I’ve cried too many tears.
But I believe the end is near.
A brand new life…
A brand new world will appear
and wash away all my tears.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 5th of October 2017.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 32:36.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

Poor bird (lyrics)

Why are you picking food on the road?
Why are you risking your life?
Cars waiting for a chance to crash you.
Who will bury you, poor bird?
Don’t you want to live?
There’s plenty of food in the woods.
Plenty of delicious nuts in the trees, in the grass.
Are you losing your home?
Poor bird…
People cutting the woods,
taking away plenty of delicious food.
Poor bird… risking your life on the road.
Who will bury you?

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in August 2012.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 27:34.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

Divine stallion (lyrics)

(Part 1)

A lonely boy like me meets a lonely horse like you.
And we meet in a dream.
Where are you?
Where are you?
Where are you?
My black horse, dark stallion.
You, wild horse of the rhythm of life.
Where are you?
Oho…
Where are you?
My white horse, snow stallion.
The risen horse of eternal afterlife.
Where are you?
Aha ah…
Where are you?
I know they hurt you,
but I’ll protect you.
No one will dare! No!
One day…
One day…
One day you will return.
Hurry, sweet love.
A boy like me needs a horse like you.
Run away with me on the beach.
Where are you?
Oho…
Where are you?

(Part 2)

One day we’ll be together, my love.
One day we’ll look in each other’s eyes again.
I wanna feel your body of work.
Work out!
Work out, you strong stallion!
Arousing all my senses.
Work out!
Hey yeah!
Work out!
I wanna feel your body of work.
Work it out!
But most of all I’d like to feel your spirit.
Your spirit…

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in November 2020.
When I was 10 years old in late 1988, two horses started to appear in my dreams.
I was riding one of the horses on the beach. This became a recurring dream.
For many years this horse appeared on the beach in my dreams, night after night after night after night. I’ve never ridden a horse in reality, but I’ve done it plenty of times in dreams. I know that God sent those angelic horses to me in my dreams, because I was bullied at school when I was 10 years old and this went on for many years. I guess God believed I needed these horses for emotional support. They never left me. They are my guardian angels.
Thank you, God, for bringing these angelic beings into my spiritual life.
Nobody else can see them, but I can see and I promise I will always take care of them.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song (part 1) starts at 13:56.
Part 2 of the song starts at 17:17.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

Kiss of life (lyrics)

I’ve been watching you.
I’ve seen your daily actions.
What’s the secret you hide?
That’s what I wonder night and day.
Are you meant to be alone?
Or is it me who you just can’t love?
But little stories told me love begins when you kiss.
After that you’re dying, dying for falling in love.

Let me kiss you in a lively way.
Let me make you high with a kiss.
You’re dying for coming alive,
after I’ve given the kiss of life.

I’ve been wanting you.
I feel a burning flame inside.
What’s the thing exciting you?
That’s what I wonder night and day.
Why do people always want to be down on the floor
before screaming ‘more’?
Well, little stories told me love begins when you kiss.
After that you’re dying, dying for falling in love.

Let me kiss you in a lively way.
Let me make you high with a kiss.
You’re dying for coming alive,
after I’ve given the kiss of life.
Let me kiss you in a lively way.
Let me make you high with a kiss.
You’re dying for coming alive,
after I’ve given the kiss of life.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer (17 years old) in spring 1996.
I’m reliving and re-examining my teenage years through some old love songs.
Originally the title of this song was ‘Kiss of death’, but I thought that sounded too cruel, so that’s why I decided a few years ago to change the title to ‘Kiss of life’.
The funny thing is that I wrote this love song when I still had very little experience with intimate kisses. It was all just imagination based on what I had seen in movies and soap operas. I was a wallflower. I didn’t even like French kissing. Honestly, I still don’t like it.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 10:01.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

 

Pussy Leroy (lyrics)

Pussy!
Pussy!
Puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss!
Puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss-puss!
Pussy!
Pussy Leroy, where are you?
I need you now.
Oehoe…
Pussy Leroy, let’s have some joy.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in April 2020.
Who likes pussycats? Well, I do! Let’s give some love to these beautiful animals.
Treat animals with love and respect.
‘Poesje Mauw’, a Dutch traditional folk song, was my inspiration for this song.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 07:30.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

The first love (lyrics)

I was so hopeless.
I saw so many things that were so far away from me.
Oh…
I am free now.
The teenager time is over right now.
Oho oho…
It’s the first time for me that I can love, can love myself.
It’s the first time for me that I can love, can love myself.

Snippet from a song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer (13 years old) in May 1992.

One of the first songs that I wrote in the English language after learning English at school. Now that I’m older and have a chance to look back to this old song, I wonder why I believed that my puberty was over, since I was only 13 years old at the time. In fact, puberty had only just begun. My body was still growing taller. But I guess it was wishful thinking. I was changing from a boy into a man. The body started to change, so I had to get used to it. It made me feel insecure. I had to learn to love and embrace this more mature face that I saw in the mirror. Secretly, I wished it would stop, because I was not ready yet to say goodbye to my childhood. I always wanted to be a child forever. I used to believe that adulthood was no fun. But Mother Nature is merciless and manhood was waiting for me at dawn, a gradual change and sexual awakening that was about to change my life forever. And once I had my first orgasm, I didn’t want to go back to my childhood anymore. Nobody had ever told me that maturity could feel so good.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 02:43.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

Medley: Not your kind / Wicked beast (lyrics)

Something in my heart says:
Boy, my life is so boring.
Know the dark sides of life.
The beauty of darkness and the creep (hiding) behind smoke.
(But everybody says:…)
Don’t talk to that guy!
Life that he lives is not your kind of life, my dear.
Don’t talk to that guy!
Life that he lives is not your kind of life, my dear.
Oeh, ah…
Oeh, ah…
Oeh, ah…
Oeh, ah…
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Oeh, yeah…
I am wicked beast forever
and nobody could be as bad as I am,
because you wouldn’t dare!
I am the super greatest wicked beast!
I am wicked beast forever
and nobody could be as bad as I am,
because you wouldn’t dare!
I am the super greatest wicked beast!
Yeah!
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Beast from the dark!
Oeh, yeah!

Written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in 1990-1992. I was between 11 and 14 years old.
One of the first songs that I wrote in English language after learning English at school.
When I played my song ‘Wicked beast’ for my father, he got a little worried about me.
The lyrics scared him. Well, don’t be worried, dad (in heaven now). It’s just theater.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 00:10.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

Show love today (lyrics)

Today, darling, I feel hot.
Today, darling, I will make you interested in me.
Today, darling, I will show you a different side of me.
Today, darling.
Today…
Your life will change.
Because I feel sure about your love for me.
So the love that I wouldn’t show you, will I show right now.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer (14 years old) in November 1992.
One of the first songs that I wrote in the English language after learning English at school.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 08:45.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
13 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
With this collection of songs I celebrate loving outcasts / scapegoats, loving yourself, LGBT love and love for animals. We all want to be loved.
Filmed between the 6th and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Not your kind / Wicked beast (medley)             00:10
02. The first love                                                          02:43
03. Such a flaming queen                                          03:50
04. Pussy Leroy                                                            07:30
05. Show love today                                                    08:45
06. Kiss of life                                                               10:01
07. Divine stallion (part 1)                                          13:56
08. Divine stallion (part 2)                                          17:17
09. Love gave the Earth horses                                 19:02
10. Mother goose                                                        24:56
11. Poor bird                                                                27:34
12. Animals will survive mankind                             30:09
13. The end is near                                                     32:36

 

Every day a new year starts (lyrics)

Oeh… aha…
Every day a new year starts.
Every day a new year starts.
Global authorities don’t decide when a new year starts.
You don’t make that decision for me.
Only my heart decides when a new year starts… in my mind.
I don’t know much for I’m only a man.
But I do know…
I said I do know that every day a new year starts.
Every day a new year starts for the world, for you, for me.

(Reprise)

I said I do know that every day a new year starts.
Every day a new year starts for the world, for you, for me.
Every day the sun comes up.
Every day a child is born.
Every day is a new fantasy.
Every day I rise from the sea.

Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in December 2016.

You can listen to the song if you click on the video.
The song starts at 41:49.
The reprise starts at 44:18.

You can also listen to other songs in this video.
17 original a cappella songs that I wrote.
Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020.
Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion.
I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs.
I hope you’ll still enjoy it….

Full track listing in video:

01. Special encounter                                          00:14
02. Set me free / Keep singing (medley)           02:39
03. Don’t forget to look at the stars                  04:54
04. I’m gonna leave here                                     08:30
05. Dancing trees                                                  11:57
06. Embracing my loneliness                              14:47
07. I am loved                                                        18:00
08. Only clouds of love (part 1)                           22:16
09. Only clouds of love (part 2)                           24:33
10. Only clouds of love (part 3)                           27:47
11. This is a new pace                                           30:25
12. Unidentified and flying                                   34:15
13. This is the place where we meet                   36:43
14. You always seem so close                              39:32
15. Every day a new year starts                           41:49
16. Every day a new year starts (reprise)           44:18
17. Only clouds of love (reprise)                          45:49