This is the place where we meet. We come together in a dream. Aha… Now I can clearly see who you are and why you like to spend some time with me. I just wanna fly. I just wanna sing. I only wanna dance with a man like you. Only someone like you would love a man like me and hold me close to your heart. Yeah This is the place where we meet and dare to dream. Now that we’ve danced here in the sky. Touched by the sunlight. I’ll never forget our dream.
Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 26 april 2019. The song is based on spiritual dreams I’ve had. I met a true angel in my dreams.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 36:43.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
This is a new pace. This is a new exciting position. I’m letting go of the past. This is a new pace.
Hear me sing, a new beginning, from my heart. Don’t remind me of my past. I’m starting again.
This is a new pace. This is a new position. I’ve got new hope for the future. This is a new pace.
Like a dove… I’m flying above… where love starts. Don’t you dare to shoot me down. I’m reaching the stars.
This is a new pace. This is a new position. And if I die, I know I’ve tried. This is a new pace.
A new exciting position. A new, a new exciting position. A new, a new exciting position.
Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 8/9 May 2015.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 30:25.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
I embrace my loneliness. Embracing my loneliness. Loneliness, such a wonderful feeling. Loneliness, I welcome you. I’m not afraid of you. I will take care of you. An unavoidable situation. A lonely spiritual sensation. I was born alone and I will die alone. Leave everything behind. That’s the beauty of life. And if you don’t understand, you will never see the light. Look up on time. The clouds will open up some time. Lonely soul, don’t miss the light. Mankind, will you see the light? Mankind, will you miss the light? Such a lonely species sailing dangerous seas. Aha aha…
Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 2 April 2020.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 14:47.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
When you hold on to your faith, there’s nothing that could break your spirit. When you keep feeding that flame inside your heart, you will always hold your back straight.
Standing tall like a tree. You won’t bow, because you were meant to be free… like a tree. Growing old like a tree. You won’t die, because you were meant to be the seed… of an ancient tree.
My sheltering trees… I can see a forest with dancing trees. All the trees are free from gravity. Dancing trees don’t want to stay on the ground. Dancing trees prefer to rise high above the clouds. They have the possibility to dance higher than the clouds.
Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 31 July – 1 August 2016. The song is based on a spiritual dream that I received on a very special morning. In this dream I saw a miraculous ballet of dozens of trees flying and dancing in the sky.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 11:57.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
Can you see all the pain we have here? Could you stay any longer? With the fire in the eyes of people? Is it only this reason? Or is there more? Tell me. I ask you questions, because there must be some reasons.
I’m gonna leave here. I wanna see more and more. I don’t know right now if you can follow your heart. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye.
Admiration… We’re on the way to home. The goal is the Home of Light. The paradise where you know: ‘I’m going to be loved.’ Yeah
I’m gonna leave here. Can you see the light? Don’t look for it, because it’s here in your heart! You must follow your intuition to the Deserted Land!
I’m gonna leave here. I wanna see more and more. I don’t know right now if you can follow your heart. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye. But I’m gone, that’s right, bye bye.
Song written by Ryan Maurice Roemer in June 1992. I was 13 years old. This was the first song in English language that I wrote after learning English at school. English was not my native language.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 08:30.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
Don’t forget to look at the clouds. I almost forgot there are landscapes in the sky. Don’t forget to look at the rain. Remember that rain is a gift from the sky.
We’ve been living in a cave… and filled with so much rage. We’ve wandered away from the truth. Now there’s only one thing we like to do. So we keep staring at illusions down below. How could we have sunk so very low? Would you dare to raise your head and take a look at the sky?
Don’t forget to look at the birds. I almost forgot birds are the guardians of the sky. Don’t forget to look at the stars. Remember that stars are sparkling in the sky.
Don’t forget to look at the stars. The morning star is coming. Don’t forget to look at the stars. The morning star is rising. Don’t forget to look at the stars. Take me away from here. Don’t forget to look at the stars.
Song written by Ryan Maurice roemer on 25 September 2017.
You can listen to the song if you click on the video. The song starts at 04:54.
You can also listen to other songs in this video. 17 original a cappella songs that I wrote. Filmed between the 1st and 14th of December 2020. Audio quality is not the best, so you’ll hear some distortion. I used a cheap camcorder for the recordings, because I was only practicing songs. I hope you’ll still enjoy it….
Listen to my playlist on Vimeo, YouTube or SoundCloud. 18 a cappella songs recorded on the night of 14 to 15 December 2020. I wrote all lyrics and melodies.
Mother goose, all little ducks belong with you. Mother goose, nobody takes care the way you do. All little ducks feel safe with you.
Teach your little babies to cross the street, is what you do. Teach your little babies to rise to the sky, is what you do, mother goose. And when there’s danger, you’ll protect them with your life. Just like an angel you won’t hesitate to fight.
Mother goose, your love is the purest of all that’s true. Mother goose, mother goose.
Lyrics written by Ryan Maurice Roemer on 26 May 2016. Filmed on 15 December 2020. All rights reserved.
Click on the video to listen to this a cappella song. This is only the reprise. If you like to hear the full song, then you should scroll down to one of the older articles published on the 1st of October 2021.
Lyrics by Ryan Maurice Roemer. Filmed on 15 December 2020.
Originally, the title of this song used to be ‘I’M NOT LOVED’. I wrote this song in early 1993 when I was 14 years old. I used to sing: ‘I’m not loved. This child is not loved.’ I was a lonely black teenager who was bullied at high school, because I was different and gay, so with this song I expressed my pain and sorrow. Actually, bullying had already started when I was 12 years old. I was bullied by some older white boys in my neighbourhood Houtwijk in The Hague in the Netherlands. They always called me a ‘faggot’. They didn’t like me, because I was a girlie boy with a feminine type of voice. One day a large group of boys, circa 10 boys (ages: 13 to 15), mostly white boys and one Indian-Surinamese boy (Hindustani), started throwing big stones at me. In the afternoon me and a friend (a Dutch white boy) went to a little nature park in my neighbourhood. He was 12 years old just like me. He was a junior swimming champion and loved water sports, so we went sailing in a mini inflatable boat in the waters of this little park. The group of bullies saw us and walked to the ditch side and started throwing big stones at me and calling me a ‘faggot’ and they screamed that they hated me and wanted to beat me up. It was very overwhelming and intimidating. Luckily, my friend who was taller and very strong started rowing really fast in the water. We tried to escape to another part of the water, but the bullies kept following us, while they walked along the ditch side. We shouted that they should stop throwing stones, but they continued doing this for more than an hour. We tried to hide behind large plants in the water. We had to stay in our boat and could not return to the land, because those big boys stood on the ditch side and threatened to beat me up. Nobody came to help us, because nobody noticed. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed, because now my friend knew that many boys in the neighbourhood called me a ‘faggot’. That was not so cool of course. I also felt sorry that he had to experience this traumatic event because of me. I felt a bit guilty, because he was not gay or girlie at all. So this is how a beautiful sunny afternoon became a nightmare. Eventually, after more than an hour the bullies walked away, finally. It felt like survival. Even today I still have a mild form of social anxiety disorder and PTSD.
Around September/October 1991 my parents and I moved to another neighbourhood, because we could get a bigger and more beautiful house there.
Because of this event in spring 1991 I became aware that I was very different from other boys and at that moment I knew that my life was going to be very different from other people’s lives. And indeed my life has been very different. I have received a lot of rejections from people in this life time. Even plenty of rejections from other gay people. When I was about 16 years old, my aunt who is bisexual warned me and said that gay men hate effeminate men. Well, many years later when I was 21 years old I found out that my aunt was right. I came out of the closet in 2000 and started exploring the gay scene in the Netherlands. It’s true that a lot of gay men hate femininity in other men. They hate softness in men. They think it’s something bad. I’ve never received any real support from the gay community. Most gay men (the masculine types) don’t really know what it’s like to be different. Being masculine is still a privilege in this world. Honestly, I think that a lot of gay men are afraid to show feminine characteristics.
If you’re a girlie boy, then most people wil stay away from you. They won’t be interested in friendship and won’t pay serious attention to you, unless you dress up in drag queen clothes. People seem to like men in drag, because they like to be entertained. I know that some people wonder if I walk around in high heals and with makeup, but I’ve never done that. There’s nothing wrong with it. If men like to do that, they should feel free to enjoy it. I noticed that drag queens have become very popular in recent years. There are also a lot of straight men who like to walk around in women’s clothes and lingerie. It has become a fetish, I guess. Because of this current hype things seem to have improved for feminine men, but that’s not really the case. If you’re a girlie boy who is not a crossdresser, then you will still be rejected a lot in daily life. Not only your social life will be very different, but also your professional life will be different, because you will get fewer opportunities. So I understand why some gay men decide to start working as drag queens. Drag queens are so popular now. But that’s not something I would do, because I don’t want to be seen as a clownesk entertainer, but as a human being in the first place.
There is a reason why I became the way I am today. After so many rejections I had no choice but to grow incredibly strong spiritually. That’s the only way to survive.
I’ve changed the title of my song to ‘I AM LOVED’. From now on I will sing: ‘I am loved. This child is very loved.’ Because I cannot and don’t want to leave this planet thinking that I’m not loved. I know that the Universe loves me, the great Cosmic Spirit loves me, Mother Nature loves me and my own mother who gave birth to me loves me too. And I also love myself. In this lifetime I have encountered angels protecting and guiding me. So this is my message to all children who are victims and survivors of bullying: I know this is a very nasty world, but don’t ever stop loving yourself. And don’t let the bullies trick you into thinking that God doesn’t love you. That’s the biggest lie of all. God loves you more than you’ll ever know.
Ryan Maurice Roemer 